6 months yesterday
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6 months yesterday
I have been floating around this forum since I got out of Rehab 5 months ago, and I have finally decided to post.
I reached the 6 months mark yesterday. What a miracle and what a gift.
Thinking back to how things were only 6 months ago still blows me away. The obsession, the lack of any real control, not to mention all the countless problems that are associated with being in the grips of an addiction.
While the last 6 months have been incredible from a abstinent perspective, the real miracle has been being able to take a look at who I really am, for the first time in my 26 years of life. I have learned so much about myself and have really come to terms with the fact that so much of what I have been doing in my life has been based out of crazy and incorrect thinking.
I have always been proud or having pride, I have been afraid of ever admitting that I am afraid and I have been so self centered that I could not even admit that I am self centered!!! What a lifestyle....
I am looking forward to learning more about my self and continuing to have the genuine desire to help others and do the next right thing.
I will top being a stranger and lurker here and I will actually start to offer support. Thanks for everything over the past several months and I look forward to getting to know some of you.
I reached the 6 months mark yesterday. What a miracle and what a gift.
Thinking back to how things were only 6 months ago still blows me away. The obsession, the lack of any real control, not to mention all the countless problems that are associated with being in the grips of an addiction.
While the last 6 months have been incredible from a abstinent perspective, the real miracle has been being able to take a look at who I really am, for the first time in my 26 years of life. I have learned so much about myself and have really come to terms with the fact that so much of what I have been doing in my life has been based out of crazy and incorrect thinking.
I have always been proud or having pride, I have been afraid of ever admitting that I am afraid and I have been so self centered that I could not even admit that I am self centered!!! What a lifestyle....
I am looking forward to learning more about my self and continuing to have the genuine desire to help others and do the next right thing.
I will top being a stranger and lurker here and I will actually start to offer support. Thanks for everything over the past several months and I look forward to getting to know some of you.
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Congratulations on your 6 month mark ! That is dynamite !
My personal opinion..... you will always be be in "the grips" of addition...
It is life, it is not a separate issue of living, it is the way your brain functions...addicted to one can of coca cola a day or really feeling you "have" to go for a 2 mile run, or feeling "I got 30 days"....who makes up that stuff anyway, that says...I've "got it" because I have been "sober" for 20 years. I do not appoligize for this post.
My personal opinion..... you will always be be in "the grips" of addition...
It is life, it is not a separate issue of living, it is the way your brain functions...addicted to one can of coca cola a day or really feeling you "have" to go for a 2 mile run, or feeling "I got 30 days"....who makes up that stuff anyway, that says...I've "got it" because I have been "sober" for 20 years. I do not appoligize for this post.
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CONGRATULATIONS JSDPhilly!!! So awesome! Six months is amazing...really happy for you!
Hope to see you in SR more! Have a great day,
Love Venus xx
PS. The chip is beautiful!!
Hope to see you in SR more! Have a great day,
Love Venus xx
PS. The chip is beautiful!!
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Thanks to everyone for the kind words. It's awesome to be able to get support in this way.
Just to tell everyone where I am at, I had a good day but I am struggling with the idea of fear vs. humility. As someone who has never experienced going through any genuine humility in my life, I am trying to figure out what it really feels like.
I had a situation where I was offered an opportunity and it is a humbling experience, but it also scares me because of the possibility of success/failure.
I am gonna be working with my sponsor tomorrow to see where I am at with it, but if anyone has an opinion(and in a recovery forum I am sure there are many) please feel free to share.
Just to tell everyone where I am at, I had a good day but I am struggling with the idea of fear vs. humility. As someone who has never experienced going through any genuine humility in my life, I am trying to figure out what it really feels like.
I had a situation where I was offered an opportunity and it is a humbling experience, but it also scares me because of the possibility of success/failure.
I am gonna be working with my sponsor tomorrow to see where I am at with it, but if anyone has an opinion(and in a recovery forum I am sure there are many) please feel free to share.
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I was feeling nostalgic about my journey and jumped on here. Amazing to see how much time has gone by and how much things have changed in my world. Just thought I would jump in and say that I am still sober, coming up on 4 years on Wednesday next week. I still go to AA regularly and honestly I haven't had a real desire to use in years.
Married a few weeks ago, quit smoking 2 years ago...now working on getting healthy physically.
Thought it would be nice to see someone pop in and say "still sober"!
Married a few weeks ago, quit smoking 2 years ago...now working on getting healthy physically.
Thought it would be nice to see someone pop in and say "still sober"!
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