I thought I was gonna be able...
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I thought I was gonna be able...
Hey all,
I'm having a very bad day. I have had hardly any sleep and I'm ready to break. I thought I would be doing better by now. I'm not sure if I am gonna be able to get through this. I'm very very depressed and I have no will to spend another night kicking and flopping in bed, knowing I have to go to work. I don't have anyone at home for support and I've been putting on a false front to everyone here. I don't want to fail but I am lost. I hate myself so much rite now. My life sucks so bad. Somebody stop the world... I want off.
I'm having a very bad day. I have had hardly any sleep and I'm ready to break. I thought I would be doing better by now. I'm not sure if I am gonna be able to get through this. I'm very very depressed and I have no will to spend another night kicking and flopping in bed, knowing I have to go to work. I don't have anyone at home for support and I've been putting on a false front to everyone here. I don't want to fail but I am lost. I hate myself so much rite now. My life sucks so bad. Somebody stop the world... I want off.
Have you tried any natural herbal supplements (valerian) to help you sleep ? You will feel sooooo much better with some sleep under your belt ... hang in there .... some OTC medication can help if taken in for a short time. Sleep does settle down eventually.
Hi SickandTired, so sorry you are having such a rough go of it right now. Not sleeping is definitely hard and makes you feel worse. How long have you been sober? The first few days are pretty rough. But the good thing is that once you get through them, they are over. And it DOES get better from there. Really, I promise. When I first read that on here and was feeling like you do I thought, "Yeah, right." But it is true. Try really hard not to give in, Sick. Don't worry so much about the not failing bit but about the fact that alcohol makes everything worse even if it feels better in the moment. Think through the anxiety and the inevitable crappy physical side effects---it will make you feel worse, it always does eventually. The sleeping thing will resolve itself soon too, really. Hang out here with us tonight. You are not alone and we are here to support you. ((HUG))
I'm only familiar with alcohol withdrawal, but from reading here I know those things are very common for opiates too - especially if it's only been a few days.
If you're depressed and not sleeping and it's really impacting your life, tho, maybe it's time to see a Dr?
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If you're depressed and not sleeping and it's really impacting your life, tho, maybe it's time to see a Dr?
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Have you tried chamomile tea before going to bed? In the evenings I also take a natural sleep aid melatonin and that really helps put me to sleep. Putting on old movies or reading helps to relax my mind.
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Hang in there, it's the unfortunate phase you have to go through if you ever want to get free from the addiciton. You give in now you will just have to start over another time if you make it back. I went into a detox, made it a lot easier.
I know peeps who didn't though and just sweated it out. Don't know how safe that is.
I've done it several times by myself too. I feel for you but pleasant is not next to the word Withdrawal in the dictionary unfortunately.
Hang in there. So you shake. Just tell yourself ok I am shaking, so what, I am uncomfortable so what, I am sweating so what. This is not going to last forever and I can get through it.
It sucks but we addicts are so used to anethetizing for any pain whatsoever. We think we have a high pain tolerance but we don't.
Just try to see when you come out the other side and you are on the road to recovery and you got through the hard part. You will feel good about that.
I know peeps who didn't though and just sweated it out. Don't know how safe that is.
I've done it several times by myself too. I feel for you but pleasant is not next to the word Withdrawal in the dictionary unfortunately.
Hang in there. So you shake. Just tell yourself ok I am shaking, so what, I am uncomfortable so what, I am sweating so what. This is not going to last forever and I can get through it.
It sucks but we addicts are so used to anethetizing for any pain whatsoever. We think we have a high pain tolerance but we don't.
Just try to see when you come out the other side and you are on the road to recovery and you got through the hard part. You will feel good about that.
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Thanks for all the positive words of encouragement. I really want to be free from this. FYI I'm an opiate addict not alcohol. One of my huge problems is my legitimate need for pain relief. My blood pressure is up from that also. I have advanced deg. Disc dis. Which has led to 2 lumbar surgeries and 1 cervical surgery (3 level fusion) in my neck. And I still have multiple disc's that are damaged and I am looking at more surgeries. Ugh. Sorry for whining about myself. When I think about all of it I want to cry. Which I have a lot lately. So I have a huge uphill battle ahead of me. You guys pray for me please.
Prayers going out to you, sickandtired..... It's hard to have a positive outlook when we feel bad and can't sleep, but try to remember that you won't feel this way forever. If it helps, look at it like the times you've had to go through recovery after surgery - it will get better, so take it slow and be good to yourself.
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Hey all,
I'm having a very bad day. I have had hardly any sleep and I'm ready to break. I thought I would be doing better by now. I'm not sure if I am gonna be able to get through this. I'm very very depressed and I have no will to spend another night kicking and flopping in bed, knowing I have to go to work. I don't have anyone at home for support and I've been putting on a false front to everyone here. I don't want to fail but I am lost. I hate myself so much rite now. My life sucks so bad. Somebody stop the world... I want off.
I'm having a very bad day. I have had hardly any sleep and I'm ready to break. I thought I would be doing better by now. I'm not sure if I am gonna be able to get through this. I'm very very depressed and I have no will to spend another night kicking and flopping in bed, knowing I have to go to work. I don't have anyone at home for support and I've been putting on a false front to everyone here. I don't want to fail but I am lost. I hate myself so much rite now. My life sucks so bad. Somebody stop the world... I want off.
There is so much understanding, strength and direction at the meetings .. and nobody puts up false fronts.
All the best.
Bob R
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