Little things
Little things
77 days in I have work to do, Easter dinner yesterday at my house, my brothers dog and my dog were fighting outside the back door and I go outside to stop it, I was angry, his dog ran away I grab my dog and go to drag him down the stairs I was to rough he missed most of the stairs and he was hurt, he's old and my bros dog is a puppy he started it not my dog. My brothers girlfriend was outside after she came in and said dexters limping a bit, I was angry about that but kept quiet. My mom heard that and started talking to me about how old he is and I should be more gentle with him and other stuff about him that went on longer than I wanted to listen to it, I was angry about that but kept quiet again. Resentment I felt to my family over a stupid little thing I had to think about to realize it was ALL ME!! None of that had to happen, took me until this morning to make the calls and say I was wrong about that, they had already forgotten about it but it was in my head. Stuff like this stayed in my head for way longer when I was drinking but its still gets in there now sometimes, I'm happy now I can get it out, that's better but I could do without the sudden outburst of anger. It makes me think about my poor wife and son who moved out 3 months ago, I did that kind of stuff all the time outburst, bottle it up, or turn it around on her starting a fight, my son is only 2 and I'm happy they moved out now he doesn't need to see that I was devistated at first but it had to happen its what triggered me to make the right choices, because of that I'm in their lives a lot more than I would have been without the program. I'm realizing I'm not as far along as I thought, I am getting better, I'm still not ready for the whole family to be back together, if that is what my future is, I miss them so much
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Hey Ryan ,Im only at 21 days but ive also quit for as long as 8 months previously and i used to blow up out of the blue as well ,I remember blowing a spaz because one of my dogs wouldnt eat his food ,he was just staring at his bowl and i lost it ,over nothing ..Ive been told its the brain changing and learning to live sober ,some kind of chemical imbalance
nice job on the 77 days , you must be sleeping good by now
I see your Flames are cleaning house,not sure if your sports fan?
nice job on the 77 days , you must be sleeping good by now
I see your Flames are cleaning house,not sure if your sports fan?
Hey Ryan ,Im only at 21 days but ive also quit for as long as 8 months previously and i used to blow up out of the blue as well ,I remember blowing a spaz because one of my dogs wouldnt eat his food ,he was just staring at his bowl and i lost it ,over nothing ..Ive been told its the brain changing and learning to live sober ,some kind of chemical imbalance
nice job on the 77 days , you must be sleeping good by now
I see your Flames are cleaning house,not sure if your sports fan?
nice job on the 77 days , you must be sleeping good by now
I see your Flames are cleaning house,not sure if your sports fan?
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