Mizzuno

I came in here 22 days ago a serious mess of a lady. Within the last handful of weeks, with the help of god and strangers, I have managed to gain employment and pursue an education that I have desired for years.
I think that our mishaps can be blessings in disguise. Who knows if I would of been happy as a researcher for Vitamins and Herbal supplements? I have done my research in the Industry for years. I believe that god works in mysterious ways. Today, I am grateful for this chance to prove myself, to myself.
On my way to a meeting today, I stopped into my local Health food store for some herbs ( my anxiety is in full force) Part of me wanted to ask if they needed a product specialist? ......The other part of me decided that there is no reason to do anything other than to go to a meeting.
At the meeting a lady spoke of "Being alright with just being Alright". This rang true for me. My husband has stated that he wants his wife back. That I do not seem okay.. Honestly, Im not sure what he will be getting back in regards to me. I am not the same without a drink in hand. I dont even know that person. My gregarious self is still there, but I am dealing with the ramifications of this last episode. I am healing. I am changing. I am processing. I am perfectly fine with being alright. Onward and Upward!

kiki26

Great post. That's something I need to remind myself also. Sometimes my mind won't stop analyzing every little thing

2granddaughters

Keep swimming toward the light.

All the best.

Bob R

ClearLight

I remember when you first showed up. It's inspiring to see you progress.

And you are growing!

Mizzuno

Oh, yeah. I am growing also.
Thank you Clearlight. Thank You.

neferkamichael

Mizzuno, you are FANTASTIC.

deeker

Just keep fighting!

least

That's a very healthy attitude.

Sally3127

Great post. I needed to read something like this today.

Richierich777

This is a great post and for others to follow. Ill keep reading and its a journey. Awesome

Ptcapote

Mizz, we talked tonight in my meeting about the serenity prayer and what it means to us. How, initially, it may seem that by accepting serenity we think that we are accepting apathy or trading excitement or the more "fun" aspects of our personality to become boring. That rang true to me and when I read your post tonight I could totally identify with you. My mother and a close friend keep saying to me that they want their daughter/friend "back." That I have changed and that I also do not seem OK. I am also not too sure what they will be getting "back" in regards to me but I DO know that I am feeling calm and maybe even a little bit serene for the first time in many, many years. Like you, I am still healing and I am perfectly fine with just being alright.

I think, at the moment, that has to be OK for everyone else too.

Onward and upward indeed and thanks for an awesome post and reminder that it IS fine to just be alright!

Acheleus

Keep on rockin in the drugs/alcohol/self pity free world!