soberclover

I have trust issues....with myself. My bf is going out of town with a friend to watch a hockey game this Friday night and my son is with his father. Even after 4 months of sobriety I still do not trust myself to be left to my own thinking! In the majority...nope all....cases I would have my worse drinking episodes and horrible consequences due to blacking out when my bf was away and I would hit the bars on my own. Last time this happened I wound up in the hospital in intensive care with a bad head injury. At least I got sober! I contacted my parents and announced that I would be spending the night on Friday. I'm 46 and still need my parents to keep me from making bad decisions!

Grymt

I'm glad you have your parents there. Ride it out. You'll be so much more confident and stronger for it. All the best.

MeSoSober

Let's instead call this "Knowing oneself well enough and being proactive and responsible enough to take advantage of available support, whatever that may be."

Now that's better, isn't it? And it's also true.

And kudos on FOUR MONTHS!!!

Odelle

Soberclover, congratulations on four months! I am sure your parents will love the company so it’s a win-win weekend. Keep up the diligence and in time not drinking will become just as normal as drinking used to be!

least

Congrats on four months sober! Do whatever it takes to stay sober, if that means visiting your parents, so be it.

gameofthrones10

Parents can be pretty awesome and if they make you feel comfort and support it's a win for all of you.

Anna

I'm glad you're planning to stay sober this weekend!

Northlander

You have four months - GREAT JOB! - and a plan for Friday night - YOU ARE PREPARED! Good work my friend. Rent a good movie to watch with the parents.

@ least - I am with you on dogs, my friend.

grandma12

I think its awesome that you have a plan, great job.

FeenixxRising

I (and probably most of us) go through that--It can be depressing when you realize you can't trust yourself in certain situations. But you've made a plan to deal with it, and it will get easier to trust yourself.

Regarding your age and your parent's help: If you were 46 and had a serious medical condition that required some help would you view this situation in the same light? Probably not, but I do understand how you would feel the way you do.

Do what you have to do to stay sober, that's the important thing.

Dee74

soberclover - I found that I was stronger than I ever knew. I had more integrity than I ever imagined too.

I know you'll find that out in time..keep moving forward

congratulations on 4 months!

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soberclover

Thank you everyone for the great feedback. I agree that it is better to look at it as being proactive and responsible vs. not trusting myself! We are planning on watching the movie Lincoln. It does feel good to not only have a plan but to be wise enough to make a plan!

Mizzuno

Popcorn ,candy, movie, favorite pillow, tea, water and a healthy dose of love form your parents. Also, your mom or dad might make you your favorite meal I think that this sounds spectacular. Have a good weekend!

soberlicious

As my mom always says to me, "It doesn't matter how old you are, you will always be my baby."

deeker

Not really, you just made a very good decision all by yourself by going to your parents. good for you!

Richierich777

You always have to plan ahead. I still do.