Well, I'm back...
Well, I'm back...
My last visit here I had stayed sober for 30 days exactly I believe. Then it all went to crap. I "thought" I could by a 6 pack and drink a few....NOT. Next day I had a 24 pack in the fridge. And it went downhill from there - until last Thursday when my wife of 2 1/2 years gave me an awakening, or rather an ultimatum. So I went back to detox Friday and got home yesterday. Felt pretty good up until late this afternoon and the cravings got so bad... but I didn't drink. I came back here.
This is the worst demon I've ever had to fight in my life. I kicked benzodiazapam 12 1/2 years ago after a long addiction (yes I know it would only take taking 1 of those and I'd be back there too), but I think this addiction beats anything.
I've scheduled an initial visit with an addiction therapist at the advice of a case manager, but I won't see them until next Wednesday. But I am looking forward to that...maybe someone can get inside my alcoholic head. I know there's no miracle drug to make it go away. So I'll keep fighting.
Anyway, hello again guys. I'm still breathing!
BW
This is the worst demon I've ever had to fight in my life. I kicked benzodiazapam 12 1/2 years ago after a long addiction (yes I know it would only take taking 1 of those and I'd be back there too), but I think this addiction beats anything.
I've scheduled an initial visit with an addiction therapist at the advice of a case manager, but I won't see them until next Wednesday. But I am looking forward to that...maybe someone can get inside my alcoholic head. I know there's no miracle drug to make it go away. So I'll keep fighting.
Anyway, hello again guys. I'm still breathing!
BW
I'm not a big book thumper and I whole heartedly believe you can do it without AA but if you haven't tried meetings maybe you should. I thought it would be a room full of miserable people. It's just the opposite. Smiling faces everywhere.
Thanks all!
@ Yup: I've tried AA in the past with negative affects. But I may give it another try...worth a shot anyway right? And I am getting back into church... I was back in until I relapsed. It does seem to help...well me anyway.
@ Yup: I've tried AA in the past with negative affects. But I may give it another try...worth a shot anyway right? And I am getting back into church... I was back in until I relapsed. It does seem to help...well me anyway.
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You have to do something or you're going to fail again. You have to grow and accept recovery and move forward or you'll be back where it is. If it's religion then that's great but I suggest having a plan for long term recovery. Detoxing is great (it helped me tremendously) and is essential but the detox I went to set us a plan for recovery. If not you're just treading water.
You have to do something or you're going to fail again. You have to grow and accept recovery and move forward or you'll be back where it is. If it's religion then that's great but I suggest having a plan for long term recovery. Detoxing is great (it helped me tremendously) and is essential but the detox I went to set us a plan for recovery. If not you're just treading water.
Mine wasn't quite that drastic but she meant what she said and I know that. And I don't want to test those waters either. I love my wife and family very much! We have 2 children and 6 grandchildren between us with #7 coming any day now. So with that said I have to keep sober this time. I'll do whatever is needed.
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