walkingwithgod

I am a 34 year old dad, husband, and alcoholic. I drink about ten beers a day, and cannot have just one or two. I have been on this forum for a few years, but I have to stop drinking today. It is killing me physically, financially, and my wife and daughter need someone better. I am scared to live without drinking.

least

I too was afraid to live without drinking - what would I do with my time? But I found that living sober was not only possible, but wonderful.

Can you go to detox to get yourself off the alcohol? AFter detoxing you're going to need support in staying sober. What kind of support system do you have? Would you be open to trying AA?

Just remember that you can do this. I thought I was doomed to die a drunk but I made it out alive and have been living sober happily for over three years now. Please don't give up on yourself!

LoftyIdeals

WwGod...I know your pain, and the only thing you can do is just do it. Get medical or face to face support if yu need, but your present situation will only continue to disintegrate if you do nothing. Give it to God, ask for His help, and drink no more. Start today.

walkingwithgod

I will no longer drink, I can't. I am on therapy for depression and anxiety

walkingwithgod

Sorry for the bad grammar I am using my I phone. I am starting to discuss my alcohol issue I'm therapy. I tried aa once, it was hard for me to be there. Everyone was way older than me.

thewastedchef

hey walking, i just lost my familey, my wife and 2 kids have left me due to my drinking, let this be a lesson, now i really am paying for my selfishness.

Mrbeagle

Hey walking, I wish you all the best, I know you can do this And I love your avatar, as a huge nerd,I appreciate me some Batman on a monday morning!

walkingwithgod

I am a nerd and would rather spend my money on Comic Books than booze. Bit, I am scared as hell to stop.

Mrbeagle

The first few days are the hardest, but I promise you, you will start to feel better pretty quickly. I was amazed at how much of my anxiety etc was actually caused by alcohol. The first step of sobriety is hard, but it's no harder than waking up with an awful hangover.

I'm no prophet as I fell off the wagon and am back on day 2, but the near month I had sober was life changing for me, and I will get back there. Good luck

hypochondriac

It is only scary because we haven't done it before. It is tough for a while but it does start getting easier as sobriety becomes a habit. You can do this WWG! X

Sasha4

Walking

I felt scared.

How would I get through an evening without a drink?
I would I have a conversation with friends without drinking?
What about holidays?
What about birthdays?
How am I going to sleep?
How will be anxiety and depression be?

I have 405 days without a drink.
The first few days are not easy.
I am still not the best conversationist.
I am not the most sociable person.

But....

My god I would rather have the life I have now, than the chaotic mess I was.
The peace in my head is amazing (most of the time).
I don't have to worry about past behaviour, what I said, what I did.

And as long as I never drink, I won't have to think about that ever again in my life. That makes me happy.

You can do this.
You can turn your life around.
Read, read, read all you can about drinking and addiction.
Post here.

And everyday wake up and say ' just for today I will not drink'

My best to you

sugarbear1

My alcoholism is not knowing how to live without drinking.

Those 12 steps saved my life.

There are several methods available to help you stay stopped.

Or read the book Alcoholics Anonymous. If you are ready to stay stopped, it's not as bad as you are making it seem. You can stay stopped, too!

Anna

I think all of us were scared when we stopped drinking and imagined life without alcohol.

But, you can do it and we are here to support you.

Pondlady

wwg,

I'm sorry you are still struggling. I think it's good you're beginning to share your issues with alcohol in therapy. You can't get the full benefit of therapy if you're not completely open and honest. Also, if you're taking any meds for anxiety and depression, the alcohol will interfere with their effectiveness .

Please be honest with your doctor and therapist......they can't help you if they don't know what is really going on.

soberjim

WWG...Don't let being scared stop you....Reach out! Sharing in therapy is a good start...

Please keep posting !!

Jim

walkingwithgod

I just fear life will not be as enjoyable sober, but it is not going so well drunk. I am just used to always having a drink. I need to get healthy, and drinking is physically destroying me.

wheresthefun

THAT'S "enjoyable"??????

doggonecarl

If, despite all your intentions, you can't quit, you've gone way past drinking as a way to make life enjoyable.

If you are an alcoholic, you are drinking to make life bareable. If you are an alcoholic you need to admit that whatever you have been doing under the guise of "recovery" isn't working and you need to do something else...overcome your fear of whatever it is you are scared of and reach out to some support/recovery program that can help.

Or believe me, it can get much, much worse. Then what?

newhope01

And 9 out 10 times it will get much, much worse and you will kick yourself for not dealing with it sooner.

coming_clean

I like ur avatar pic walkingwithgod.

Welcome.