no contact over mothers day.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: Toowoomba, Queensland
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Well i managed to leave my alcoholic mother and move back home to Australia. My labrynthitis has now gone, i still don't sleep properly as my brain never stops thinking. My dad rings about every fortnight and has been in contact with the mother, who wants to ring me as i left owing money, she reckons. She is not happy with the way i left and my reasons. I have told dad to give her the phone number as my aunty will answer the phone to her as i live down the road with no phone. I have just shown my aunty all the videos amd pictures of proof i took of my mother, so she knows i am not making it up in my head. Mothers day has just been and gone back in England. I have sent my mother 2 letters since i have been here, but no contact other than that. I feel bad i didnt send her a card, but know that if i did she would think i am fine with her now. I am not!!! I try to stop thinking and worrying about her, but it is hard.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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I think the worrying part is the worst; the fact that you feel that something will happen because of your lack of involvement. I will tell you something that I can't do yet and that is: You have the right to focus solely on your life and make decisions that will benefit you solely. Don't feel bad for not sending anything for mother's day, if she deserved it, you probably wouldn't have tried to escape, right?
HI! If you do ever send a card don't use your real return address, maybe use your Aunt's address. Just in case. Now that you are feeling better maybe it's time to start working the steps to learn to let go. I can't remember where you are with that but it's a great resource. It's really hard to not be in the chaos, expecting the next problem all the time and of course feeling responsible. But you are not responsible. If you don't have meetings out there, then get the book and the workbook and/or work online the steps:
Friends and Family Step Study - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Friends and Family Step Study - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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Join Date: Feb 2013
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I think the worrying part is the worst; the fact that you feel that something will happen because of your lack of involvement. I will tell you something that I can't do yet and that is: You have the right to focus solely on your life and make decisions that will benefit you solely. Don't feel bad for not sending anything for mother's day, if she deserved it, you probably wouldn't have tried to escape, right?
I feel the same way about Mother's Day. If you're separating yourself from her then there is probably no reason to send a card. Even worse, imagine trying to find one that fit the situation. I've struggled for years to find a card that didn't say how much she did for me growing up, how i looked up to her or any of those things that Mother's Day cards typically say. I find the most basic one possible and just sign my name (except for this year.....no more.)
Well i managed to leave my alcoholic mother and move back home to Australia. My labrynthitis has now gone, i still don't sleep properly as my brain never stops thinking. My dad rings about every fortnight and has been in contact with the mother, who wants to ring me as i left owing money, she reckons. She is not happy with the way i left and my reasons. I have told dad to give her the phone number as my aunty will answer the phone to her as i live down the road with no phone. I have just shown my aunty all the videos amd pictures of proof i took of my mother, so she knows i am not making it up in my head. Mothers day has just been and gone back in England. I have sent my mother 2 letters since i have been here, but no contact other than that. I feel bad i didnt send her a card, but know that if i did she would think i am fine with her now. I am not!!! I try to stop thinking and worrying about her, but it is hard.
She'll try her best to make you feel guilt and shame, and maybe to send her money, etc. Don't fall for it! This cr*p our parents do to us is not our fault, no matter how often they try to say it is.
But the important thing, now that you're out of the immediately dangerous situation, is to work on your own stuff. Moving to the other side of the world gets you out of one kind of trouble, but your brain comes along with you, so whatever work it needed back there, it still needs down here! I had great results with the ACA Workbook, with my sponsor, and am now starting in on Al-Anon's Blueprint for Progress workbook, which has a lot of the same type of writing exercises. Good luck!
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