NickCage

I posted here a while back. At the time I was getting over a herion addiction. I think september was the last time I used it. After that I was clean maybe 2 weeks before I relapsed on methadone, oxicodone, or whatever opiate I could get ahold of. That was until march 10. I got lucky and got arrested for a ticket I forgot about. After a few days of the physical withdrawals in jail, I made a promise to myself and God that this would be my last time. I know its not as easy as i made that sound. The mental addiction is harder for me to kick than the physical. I got released from jail the 21st. So far I have deleted every phone number of anyone I ever bought pills from and anyone that I bought pills with. This is the first time ive quit that i am confident in myself. Im at the point where I know ive got to get away or my life will just keep getting worse. Im 2 weeks clean now and I still feel that i will never go back to that life again. I know there is a chance that i will screw up. Nobodys perfect. Sorry for the long post. I just had to get it off my chest. Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers. Good luck to everyone else on here too. Thank you for letting me share.

ForMy2Boys

Congrats!!! Just stay strong, you have two weeks under your belt and the rest of your life to enjoy the new you! mental addiction is hard. Continue seeking active support. And very smart to delete all the numbers of those who hold you down and will never hold you up.

least

WElcome back! And congrats on two weeks clean.

Nattythreads

It's a fantastic thing you're doing Nick, and I know how hard it is. Be careful of isolating yourself. That really gives the opportunity for the mind to go in to overdrive.

Coldfusion

Congratulations!

Welcome back!

And please stick around, we need you here at SoberRecovery! As you can see by my post count, I'm sort of an addict but-hey, once an addict always an addict. Even my wife doesn't mind my SR habit!

Even just one post a day would be fantastic, you have a lot of strength and it will help keep you strong if you share it!

(My wife and I quit drinking and smoking pot 145 days ago).

NickCage

Thats a really good idea. My mind can definatly get me in trouble when Im alone. So far Ive gone to church today to try to be around more positive influence. And Ive also gotten in touch with some old, sober friends. Im gonna try to hang out with them. Thanks everybody for your advice and support. I need all i can get.

Nattythreads

Have you got any local NA meetings? I'm presuming you have if you're hooking up with sober friends. Could be worth a shot (again?) . Best of luck to you mate.

Vastreaction

I have seen short novels posted here, yours was a breeeeeeze.


In all seriousness, congrats on your sobriety, glad to have you here. Hope you stick around and keep reading/posting! It's a pretty awesome place.

Anna

It sounds like you're ready to make this work for you.

I'm glad you posted.

Panache

Welcome back Nickcage,

Well done on your 2 weeks, that's a massive achievement. Stay close, we're all here for you

NickCage

Got a suspended license. lol. I go where I can walk to or get a ride. I live in the country so theres no meetings within walking distance. As soon as i come up with the 400 to get it back i will be going to as many as i can

NickCage

Im telling you. Ive been bragging to my friends about it. lol. First time in 10 years I could pass a drug test without cheating or worrying

Panache

So you should, you're heading in the right direction and joining this site is another positive step.

You the man Nick!

NickCage

Thanks everybody. Having confidence without drugs is great. A new feeling but I like it. Im still feeling depressed at times and not much energy but it will pass.

coming_clean

Awesome.

Just keep on truckin'

Nattythreads

That's a bummer. Maybe do some online ones? Anything to keep you plugged in and focused. You've got experience of how this'll go, so forewarned is forearmed as they say. You know that not every day's a breeze - just don't lose sight of the bigger picture.

Cheers man

NT

Dave H

Good job. Look up the thread entitled "People Places & Things". It may help you.