What a month
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What a month
Well it has been about a month since I decided to quit drinking. Wow, what a month it has been. I remember about 7-8 days into it posting on my AVRT thread that I really wanted to take home the free beer in our work "beer fridge". I didn't. Probably two or so weeks in I remember driving past the liquor store on my left and it felt like I had to pull my car to the right just to avoid going in....but, I didn't. The last few weeks horrible depression that I just knew a drink would fix.... didn't have it. And here I am a month later. Last night I poached an AA meeting and got a 30 day chip. I swear I was sitting there waiting for them to say it..."is there anybody here with 30 days". I flew out of my chair and said "yeah me" and it felt great. 
I even tackled one of my biggest fears this month and finally got braces... in my 30's. I had gone for the consultation for invisilign 3 months ago.. found out I would need actual braces and said no way. I am not confident enough to wear braces at my age... I was so wrong. I dont even mind the way I look in the braces (ok... I admit it they're ceramic but, still)
I cannot believe how RR, SR (thanks to the people on my thread who are helping me really stare that beast in the face
) and even a sprinkle of AA have impacted my life in the last month.
I couldn't make it 3 days sober in the past... so this is big for me. I am the chronic relapse queen no more.
I even tackled one of my biggest fears this month and finally got braces... in my 30's. I had gone for the consultation for invisilign 3 months ago.. found out I would need actual braces and said no way. I am not confident enough to wear braces at my age... I was so wrong. I dont even mind the way I look in the braces (ok... I admit it they're ceramic but, still)
I cannot believe how RR, SR (thanks to the people on my thread who are helping me really stare that beast in the face
) and even a sprinkle of AA have impacted my life in the last month. I couldn't make it 3 days sober in the past... so this is big for me. I am the chronic relapse queen no more.
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jkb, you are A STAR!!!!!
I love your phrase '...with a sprinkle of AA'. haha, I get that - often that's all many people need, to leave it as just one part of many facets of their recovery diamond.
I too hope and pray that my 'chronic relapse queen' sub-identity (lurk, lurk, lurking below......:-)) just falls away, buggers orrff, takes It's bat n ball and goes home. I like to think of It (Beast) as Gollum, slithering about with that horrible little half-smile :-)
Blessings to ya, gorgeous
Vic
I love your phrase '...with a sprinkle of AA'. haha, I get that - often that's all many people need, to leave it as just one part of many facets of their recovery diamond.
I too hope and pray that my 'chronic relapse queen' sub-identity (lurk, lurk, lurking below......:-)) just falls away, buggers orrff, takes It's bat n ball and goes home. I like to think of It (Beast) as Gollum, slithering about with that horrible little half-smile :-)
Blessings to ya, gorgeous
Vic
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You are all very sweet.. I wasn't going to post about it but, now I am glad I did. Thank you all.
doggonecarl... u really helped me along the way. Thanks....
bemyself... I realate to you so much and love reading your posts. You too are a star.
And of course Dee74
doggonecarl... u really helped me along the way. Thanks....
bemyself... I realate to you so much and love reading your posts. You too are a star.
And of course Dee74
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