made it through today
made it through today
I stayed sober today. I know i can do it. I'm just frustrated because i want things to happen NOW. I head out on my 1000 mile trip tomorrow. I'm planning on hitting an AM meeting before i leave. I'm restless and anxious. I can't wait to get on the road with my AA speaker tapes. I'll have a good 18 hours of tapes downloaded for the trip. I'm trying to keep focused and motivated but i'm frustrated that i can't do anything right now but read, listen and not drink. Being frustrated, of course, makes me want to drink. Ugh.
Gonna pick up my 24 hour chip in the morning. I feel like an ass since i've been going to meetings but i feel like i need that chip to mark this as a siginifcant period of sobriety. Perhaps even IT. i need to get to sleep soon but sleep is being elusive. Drinking wouldn't help though. Can't make that drive with a wretched hangover. It's unsafe and miserable to boot. Damned if i do, damned if i don't.
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