Boogs87

Wow never thought I would be doing anything like this, I guess I'm just ready to listen and learn. I started drinking at 18 and dove deep into it because I was always a shy kid and the alcohol made me not shy and it seemed to let me do things I wouldn't usually do ie. actually talk to people, in fact the friends I made in my first year of college said I was "so much cooler when I was drunk". Before I started drinking I played sports in high school and even got a scholarship to college to play soccer. That lasted a year and a half that's when I talked myself into dropping out of college and coming back home. I basically told my self I was missing out on all the fun and partying my friends were doing and I could just go to community college back home and not play soccer any more. It's funny what an alcoholic can talk them selves into just to drink. Long story short the past 7 years have been a battle between my ears, I swear I could talk myself into anything just to drink. 2 dwis in about a year, countless blackout nights I can't remember how I got home let alone didnt go back to jail. And the cherry on top vomiting and shitting my pants in front of all my friends. I would drink every weekend starting at noon and not stopping till my money ran out or I blacked out..passes out..etc.. And then I would be ashamed of my self and not drink for a few days and then convince myself I didn't have a problem and go back out on the weekends and do the same thing I said I wouldn't do just days go. Finally last Saturday night I was in and out of consciousness in a bathtub at a friends house with 3 of my best friends trying to keep me awake, not drown, this is while I'm shitting my pants and throwing up, I just wanted to die. Thankfully they forgave me and said its ok and we're still friends. However I am finally ready to admit I am an alcoholic and I need help. It sucks because I'm 25 an I know I'll be missing out on a lot as far as social situations go, but I'm just done....DONE.... I'm going to give recovery everything I got, please tell me what I can do to get better.

Cleopatra1

hiya boogs,,i think u already know what u have to do hunny,imo.
you are here and thats a huge step 4ward,,keep it up,,you can do this,and keep strong and positive too, big hugs
x lv cleo xxxx

hypochondriac

You won't be missing out Boogs. We all think that at the start, no matter what age we are, but eventually you start to realise that the drinking bit isn't what was fun about socialising. I was painfully shy when I was a kid and that's what started me drinking but despite my years of drinking I have developed as a person and I'm not so shy anymore and there is no need to get drunk before a social event. I had convinced myself that was what I needed and what made me able to enjoy myself but it's simply not true. And there are ways of socialising that don't involve alcohol too! Strange as it seems that was a revelation to me too. Glad you're here x

kizzie

Hi Boogs, you've found a good place here if quitting drinking is your goal. We all know the merry-go-round of hangovers, swearing never again, only to forget the humiliation and physical pain and do it all over again. The first thing I recommend is to READ READ READ through these forums, every little nook and cranny, and post post post - in the morning, in the evening, whenever you have a craving for alcohol or if you're feeling great. Some people like the support of AA; others have found different methods work better for then. Learn everything you can about alcohol addiction and those insidious voices that tell you you need a drink, and how to kick them to the curb. Welcome to SR.

Nonsensical

Welcome Boogs!

I have a voice in my head that used to be able to talk me into drinking all the time, also. Once I learned to deal with him, my problems got a lot better.

I recommend reading around the various forums here. There are multiple ways to attain and maintain sobriety. Learn about all of them. Try out as many as you need to find the best fit for you. There will be ups and downs, but there is a method that will work for you.

As for missing out on social situations - well, I personally wouldn't miss situations I can't recall due to blackouts or waking up with sh!t in my pants. I'd be rather happy not to deal with that any more.

But seriously, there are other ways to socialize. You'll figure that out in time. Right now, just get healthy!

Best of luck!

hawkeyefan

I agree with Nonsensical! It is hard when you're young because you think you will miss out on fun, but blackouts and hangovers aren't fun. If you continue, you'll eventually have withdrawals and they REALLY aren't fun. In time you will see that you can still have fun while sober and stopping now will greatly reduce health problems, legal problems, relationship problems, etc. that those of us who didn't quit while so young went through.
They suck!!!!

hawkeyefan

And I do wish you the best of luck! These posts do help; they have really helped me!