Day 1 and confessions
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Day 1 and confessions
Hi all.
After managing 3 days last week, I started again and could not stop. I was sleeping all day and the other morning just didn't get up to take the kids to school. I have spent all week ringing friends and family to tell them what's happening. Fessing up them all. It culminated in my sister coming and picking up my kids yesterday and me going to see an alcohol councillor.
As soon as I left that meeting I went to the liquor store and went home to get trashed.
I've spent all day vomiting up bile, not being able to keep any water down.
Manged to get some powerade into me just now and hoping I can eat something soon.
I've got great support from friends and family, although my partner has left.
Just feeling pretty sick and lonely right now. My kids are with there dad and I'm so peed off he gets to have this moral high ground over me. Yet my behaviour has been awful.
Just hoping to get through the day / night.
I did get up this morning and pour rest of the booze away.
Wish I could just wake up and it all be over.
After managing 3 days last week, I started again and could not stop. I was sleeping all day and the other morning just didn't get up to take the kids to school. I have spent all week ringing friends and family to tell them what's happening. Fessing up them all. It culminated in my sister coming and picking up my kids yesterday and me going to see an alcohol councillor.
As soon as I left that meeting I went to the liquor store and went home to get trashed.
I've spent all day vomiting up bile, not being able to keep any water down.
Manged to get some powerade into me just now and hoping I can eat something soon.
I've got great support from friends and family, although my partner has left.
Just feeling pretty sick and lonely right now. My kids are with there dad and I'm so peed off he gets to have this moral high ground over me. Yet my behaviour has been awful.
Just hoping to get through the day / night.
I did get up this morning and pour rest of the booze away.
Wish I could just wake up and it all be over.
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Join Date: Feb 2013
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Not drink !!! I'm seeing the alcohol councillor on Monday and I guess ill make some plans with them. Not drinking is my only plan right now. It helps I feel so ill the thought makes me shudder. Think about my girls and how much they need me.
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Sorry that you're going through this.
Don't concern yourself with your partner, higher moral ground, etc. That's not important. Focus on getting well. Your girls need you yes, but a healthy, sober mom. I didn't see my son for some time while I focused on my recovery and sobriety. Or if I did see him, it had to be supervised. So I understand your trepidation, but getting yourself well will be the best thing for your lovely girls
Don't concern yourself with your partner, higher moral ground, etc. That's not important. Focus on getting well. Your girls need you yes, but a healthy, sober mom. I didn't see my son for some time while I focused on my recovery and sobriety. Or if I did see him, it had to be supervised. So I understand your trepidation, but getting yourself well will be the best thing for your lovely girls
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