PreciousKitty

Well, I screwed up last night. I can't even pinpoint why.They say relapse is a part of recovery.i never thought I'd go drink again. i was doing so good for so long.That makes 5 relapses in three months! Now I feel terrible physically and spiritually. When am i going to learn?

Received

"When am I going to learn?"

I don't know the answer to that question. I do know it CAN be done. What can you do differently to achieve freedom from the Beast?

Dee74

hey PK

Many of us have faltered - but relapse is part of the illness, not recovery.
don't fall for the old 'relapse is part of recovery' line - our addiction loves that.

you can learn from it tho - think about what else you could have done, think about what else you need to change, or what more support you need - next time you can be prepared and ready, and kick butt

D

jazzfish

I was a chronic relapser for many years. I got to the point that I would lie about, which eventually drove me away from even trying. This was hurting no one but myself. Having a relapse is a normal part of moving into recovery - although, it is not required and this fact is not an excuse. Keep at it and stay honest about it!

LadyinBC

We don't learn anything unless we make a few mistakes along the way. We actually plan our relapses without even realizing it. This journey is not easy for any of us. Think about what kept you going when you were sober and really take a look at what set you off. See if there is something you can change so that it won't happen the next time.

We are all a work in progress.

BurntToast

I have had two relapse since the beginning of the new year. I am on day one yet again.

Dee74

welcome Burnt Toast

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Coldfusion

Thanks for sharing here, Kitty!

I had to make some major decisions--like spending a week in detox--and some major life changes--like AA meetings daily--before I knew I was on a different course.

Most other alcoholics were only in detox a few days, and there are folks who stay sober without AA.

I hope you can find the changes in your life that keep you sober.

kizzie

PK, Don't beat yourself up. You WILL get there.

Dee, thanks for that. I'm on day 5 and my AV perked right up for a second there.

2granddaughters

Relapse hasn't been a part of my recovery. I can't afford it ......

I surrendered to AA in 1989 and haven't had to drink since.

I wish you the best.

Bob

instant

PK for me things changed when I stopped "quitting drinking" and embraced sobriety unconditionally- that means if I am bored then I am bored, If I am stressed I am stressed etc etc it takes drinking of the table as a potential "solution"

bunny44

that is me. For so many years I knew I had to quit, but I never really wanted to. One day I realized I wanted to leave alcohol behind. I no longer look at quitting drinking as losing something. I'm on day 10 and I never have felt more real. Creaky knees, brain numbing kid's homework, bike rides in the sun, I see them all so clearly now, I cannot imagine ever making the choice to leave this behind.

Just keep at it. It will stick.

ReadyAndAble

And that is me.

bunny and instant have perfectly described my tipping point, PK. It's so obvious to me now that drinking was the real sacrifice. It's just hard to see when you're still stuck in the bubble of addiction. This way really is so much easier. You will be glad you didn't give up.