jchemko

I'm going to give it everything i've got this time. I'm so sick of drinking, hurting people, the shame. Nothing about drinking is useful to me. All it does is chaos the heck outta my life and the lives of the ones I love. And you would think that that would all that a nice fella like myself would need to stop drinking but NO! It calls to me, it has my number, it twists and warps my morals into something they're not, and I end up fooling or convincing myself (WHAT!?) that it will be different this time, that I can control it, that I am in control, but the truth is as long as I keep drinking then alcohol will always be in control of my life. I'll never get an honest say into what I really wanna do. My choices will not be my own, but rather a dark and mishapen representation of what I want them to be. and still the battle rages on! What do I need to be motivated to stop.... permanently.

Dee74

Welcome

Giving everything you've got sounds like a great idea Jchemko
do you have a plan?

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Coldfusion

One real good thing to do, that you can do right now, is read some other threads here at SoberRecovery.

Check back at this thread and see what other advice people have given.

And share your experiences because others can learn from them.

Thanks for joining!

Delilah1

Welcome to SR!! I agree with Coldfusion, I spent a lot of time reading and posting on here in the beginning. You will find lots of support on here!!!

veryready

I would start by reading what you just wrote a few times. Motivated me.

least

to the family! We're glad you joined us!

mecanix

For me the pain and fear of carrying on was worse than the fear of trying to change . So i changed . It's not easy but it's worthwhile .

Bestwishes, M