gincognito

Yeah a Monty Python reference. For realz tho folks. I've been a poster on here for a while and I've been on again off again addict and alcoholic for 25 years with some lengthy periods of pleasant sobriety. Never met a drug I couldn't handle, more or less handle anyway I guess, or I wouldn't have ended up in AA but I digress.

So here's where it gets interesting. I started a very promising new job 4 weeks ago and went on methylphenidate to help with my ADHD symptoms. It was great, I was focused and worked hard and everything was peachy keen. Got the best sleep of life oddly enough considering it's a CNS.

And then it gets real interesting. I started to get acutely depressed. I kept calling my psychiatrist but he didn't call me back. I got more acutely depressed. Now I've been up for two days and had about 4 mg/kg body weight over that time period and my chest feels even worse than my psyche. Gonna hop in the shower and head to the ER.

Be careful people, and don't be all clever like me and convince a doctor to give you a script for a schedule II controlled substance. Wish me luck, I'm going to need it as I guess this is going to be a king hell detox.

gincognito

Oh and if you do go on this stuff and find it useful, don't cross the line of crushing and insufflating it because once you do there is no turning back. Oh hey I can probably get in another line before my heart pops and then I'm getting right in the car to the ER. Don't mind me.

Impurrfect

Oh, wow, I can totally relate to convincing a dr. to give me a controlled substance, though not the same one you were on.

I'm glad you're going to the ER.

The DOC that brought me to my knees was crack, but before that my DOC was "MORE!!!!" My profession (nurse) made it worse, for me, as I was quite a manipulator.

Good news is, I'm in recovery and you can get there, too. Can't thing of much I didn't abuse, at one time or another, but even gave up cigarettes a week ago (my last vice) and am amazed I haven't had a worse time.

Keep reading and posting, CHECK with the ER dr.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

Dee74

I'm really glad you're going to the ER Ginc.
keep us updated when you can.

D

gincognito

Thanks for paying attention to me Amy. I thought I was safe on this stuff. I never had trouble using cocaine and this stuff is supposed to be baby cocaine but I started having the craziest emotions I've ever felt and the options are now ER or death. Hard to believe this stuff can do this and even harder to believe I can't get a doctor to call me back. Oh well hey look another line.

Dee74

Just stop...and go to the ER Ginc.
Get a Cab or call 911.

D

sugarbear1

Please dump that stuff out and get yourself some help.

I've been at that point and so have some people I know, please stop before you really do have a heart problem!!

Begging won't work, I know, but please?!?

Impurrfect

Sweetie, I used to be an ER nurse before I allowed my addiction to ruin that career. This is NOT medical advice, just concern.

PLEASE get to an ER, the heck with waiting for a dr. to call you back. If I'm over-reacting, oh well...this is something I think you need to be seen about now.

I was terrified of cocaine - saw 2 young people die of it, yet went on to become a crack addict. Sometimes, we don't always do what is best for us, but sounds like you know what needs to be done.

Please keep us posted.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

gincognito

Well I had to have a shower, can't got the hospital all smelly. Couple more rails and I'll hop in the car. Better call the ER and make sure they aren't too busy, they hate people like me.

HereIAm321

.......

Dear god DID YOU GET TO THE HOSPITAL YET?

Stop doing lines *NOW* and *GO*!!!!

Please!

We love you!

gincognito

I had to call first. It went like this:

me: hi are you open?
exhausted irritated receptionist: we're an er of course
me: would you say your facility it appropriate for someone overdosing on a schedule II substance?
exhausted irritated receptionist: we're an er of course *sigh*
me: is there parking?
exhausted irritated receptionist:...*sigh*

They hate me already, I'm so ashamed. Now I've just got to gather up all my pills to bring along in case I'm too stoopid to explain what the problem is when I get there

HereIAm321

.....You sure you're not just maybe a bit sensitive right now?

Do they even know you? Can they see your number? I'm confused as to why you think they hate you....?

Receptionist was probably just moody.

Either way, eff what they think, GO NOW!

gincognito

Yeah I'm just being a dick at this point, depending on you all for sympathy and soon to be taking time from busy medical professionals who have real sick people to deal with. Anyway there's the last rail and off I go. Wish me luck and please don't try this at home. I'm so bewildered by this ****.

gincognito

OK nthere I go out the door thanks for listening folks

Dee74

best wishes.

D

renaldo

I know you won't see this msg. until you get home, but you sound pretty sick to me. OK, it's not an appendicitis, but if you try to self medicate to stop the Jones, you could O.D. That's pretty serious.

instant

It has been a privilege to read this thread. I hope it works out.

ricmcc

Hi: One thing that strikes me in your post is that your were Rx'ed the meds in the first place for a legitimate reason, and than when problems arose, he didn't return your calls. Your going to an ER is an excellent idea; changing doctors might not be a bad idea, either. Best of luck to you-----Rick

Fandy

Please check back and tell us you are ok.
Actually i did understand your concerns about parking as the costs can be huge, on top of the ER fee, and taking a taxi might be cheaper. I dont think you should be driving.

gincognito

I'm back, not particularly OK as now the depression is getting severe and the didn't give me any meds but I guess I will go for a long run or something and hope for the best.