Day 3
Day 3
I had been drinking every day for the last year or so and over time the amount each day seemed to increase. I got tired of always being hung over, feeling unhealthy and lazy, not able to do work around the house. I'm 23 and have been drinking like this for about four years. I was never the kind of person who could have one or two drinks with friends and leave it at that. Once I started I wouldn't stop until I was asleep or "passed out". I guess I was using drinking as a way of avoiding my issues with depression. Drinking always made me forget any bad feelings until the next day when I would have to do it all over again. I don't have any real friends other than my sister and my partner. I'm okay with that.
Aside from still wishing I could be drinking, I just feel extremely irritable and a little overly emotional. Since I haven't really been drinking all that long, I hope that this will pretty much be the worst of it. I do feel good about not drinking, but part of my brain is still trying to convince me I will never stay sober and I may as well give up now. A big motivator for me is becoming physically and mentally healthy. I hope that my relationship will improve. However, he does still drink. It hasn't been a problem yet. I think my cravings would still exist even if there weren't beer in the house.
I'm feeling kind of stupid being so young, having not been drinking very long. I guess I'm comparing my situation to those who have quit drinking after twenty years of having a serious problem with alcohol. Is there anybody else with a similar problem to mine?
Aside from still wishing I could be drinking, I just feel extremely irritable and a little overly emotional. Since I haven't really been drinking all that long, I hope that this will pretty much be the worst of it. I do feel good about not drinking, but part of my brain is still trying to convince me I will never stay sober and I may as well give up now. A big motivator for me is becoming physically and mentally healthy. I hope that my relationship will improve. However, he does still drink. It hasn't been a problem yet. I think my cravings would still exist even if there weren't beer in the house.
I'm feeling kind of stupid being so young, having not been drinking very long. I guess I'm comparing my situation to those who have quit drinking after twenty years of having a serious problem with alcohol. Is there anybody else with a similar problem to mine?
Welcome to SR.
The difference between you and someone like me, who drank for thirty-something years, was I was too stupid or stubborn to think I had a problem with alcohol at 23 so I did nothing about it.
Don't wait 30 years to confirm you should have gotten sober now.
The difference between you and someone like me, who drank for thirty-something years, was I was too stupid or stubborn to think I had a problem with alcohol at 23 so I did nothing about it.
Don't wait 30 years to confirm you should have gotten sober now.
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stupid? heck no! it's very smart of you to catch it so early. you are doing great, don't give up! i can't imagine it being easy for someone your age to avoid social situations where there is alcohol. you'll find a ton of support here though, welcome aboard!
stupid? heck no! it's very smart of you to catch it so early. you are doing great, don't give up! i can't imagine it being easy for someone your age to avoid social situations where there is alcohol. you'll find a ton of support here though, welcome aboard!
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