escapist

I have to go . I don't want to go. I want to hide under the bed. Well, I can show her what I am like with 90 days sober. I still have a breathing problem, It improved dramatically after I stopped drinking and cleared out a lot of fluid I retained. I am trying to not worry. I feel 100% better than I did but I am not as young I was. I am pissed at myself but there is nothing I can do but just do it. Face the reality.
I wonder if I can fit under my bed??

Coldfusion

Now, now, if you hide under the bed and get stuck we're just a forum and can't come rescue you!

TTBABP

Coldfusion is right - besides some of us might want to join you and then where will we be.

Really though - I wish you lots of luck at the DR!

escapist

I am getting ready to go. I just bought Drinking A Love Story. I am trying NOT to think about Caroline Knapp right now

Coldfusion

Our addictions allowed us to hide from physical problems. You know you will not go back into that way of hiding--but I can understand that this first step is hard.

escapist

Thanks Cold. I need a bit of levity. I will let y'all know. You guys know more about me than anyone I know.

MIRecovery

The way I look at it. I did not go through all this crap of getting sober to die of something else. BTW I hate doctors too but I do go.

FreeFall

Good luck at the doctor's-I've got to go too, and it's very intimidating if you've been avoiding it like me. I've got to think we're healthier though! All this hard work will have to show up in results somewhere right?

IndaMiricale

If you dont go, the anxious part of you can just make your health worse..

Part of recovery and sobriety is facing fears..

You can do it, can come back here and share please.. :ghug3

soberlicious

I'm proud of you for facing the fear and going to the DR. Don't look at it as just a visit to the doctor, but a lesson in fearlessness as well. It's these kinds of things that we face, and do, that build and grow confidence. Some of my favorite words from a favorite woman are "Do the thing you think you cannot do."

No matter how big or small...it is only in the doing that we move forward...always forward.

ps...I thought the Caroline Knapp book was amazing.

xo

lilgolden73

Let us know how it goes escape!! I need to go to the doctors myself . Everyone seems to have breathing problems this winter!

Quinne

One of the amazing things about sobriety is caring enough about myself to look out for my health and wanting to

Good on you for having the courage to go-sounds like the fear of knowing what's potentially going on is a lesser one than not knowing and running away. That's a big deal, IMO! Keep us posted

XX

pooky

At least you're not still drinking and have to tell her that too!!!

Delilah1

How did things go today? Thinking about you.