I couldn't get past a few days, how'd I make it a year?
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I couldn't get past a few days, how'd I make it a year?
Today is a year sober for me. That is a miracle. I went round & round with my addiction for years. I bargained, tried moderating, etc.
I could not understand how something could control me to such extent.
I was a church going, married mother with a great career, I ate healthy, exercised regularly. No problems other than normal day to day stresses.
I drank & drugged as a teen/ young adult but stopped awhile when my career began.
I began drinking again when my child was a toddler, due to stress. And it made me a happier mom. I started back to work & drank on the Weekends for fun. And relieve stress. I deserved to relax & unwind.
I had no intention of it becoming a daily necessity to function. But it did. Weekends turned into every other day.. More quantity, eventually I was binging daily. Lying to my husband, hiding alcohol everywhere, driving drunk, going to work buzzed...
Waking up hands shaking, night sweats, anxiety attacks, suicidal depression.
I hated myself, what I'd become & I couldn't stop. I wanted to so badly. I tried 50,000 times & failed miserably. A thousand broken promises to my husband.
I couldn't understand why I kept coming back to it, knowing it was destroying EVERYTHING in my life I had worked so hard for.
I googled alcoholic mind & it brought me here to SR.
What a God send! I wasn't alone, it was a relief to see so many who were just like me. And some had beaten this monster.
I gained wisdom, strength, encouragement from those who'd blazed the sober trail.
I vowed I would do whatever it took to get sober ..AA, AVRT, etc. I read a ton of books On addiction.
I decided drinking was absolutely no longer an option.
With the strength from my Lord Jesus & the wonderful people here, I have a good life free of addiction.
Thanks to all here who contribute especially Dee & my classmates of Jan 2012 (they have kept me sane & accountable)
Don't EVER give up, freedom is possible.....you just have to work for it.
I could not understand how something could control me to such extent.
I was a church going, married mother with a great career, I ate healthy, exercised regularly. No problems other than normal day to day stresses.
I drank & drugged as a teen/ young adult but stopped awhile when my career began.
I began drinking again when my child was a toddler, due to stress. And it made me a happier mom. I started back to work & drank on the Weekends for fun. And relieve stress. I deserved to relax & unwind.
I had no intention of it becoming a daily necessity to function. But it did. Weekends turned into every other day.. More quantity, eventually I was binging daily. Lying to my husband, hiding alcohol everywhere, driving drunk, going to work buzzed...
Waking up hands shaking, night sweats, anxiety attacks, suicidal depression.
I hated myself, what I'd become & I couldn't stop. I wanted to so badly. I tried 50,000 times & failed miserably. A thousand broken promises to my husband.
I couldn't understand why I kept coming back to it, knowing it was destroying EVERYTHING in my life I had worked so hard for.
I googled alcoholic mind & it brought me here to SR.
What a God send! I wasn't alone, it was a relief to see so many who were just like me. And some had beaten this monster.
I gained wisdom, strength, encouragement from those who'd blazed the sober trail.
I vowed I would do whatever it took to get sober ..AA, AVRT, etc. I read a ton of books On addiction.
I decided drinking was absolutely no longer an option.
With the strength from my Lord Jesus & the wonderful people here, I have a good life free of addiction.
Thanks to all here who contribute especially Dee & my classmates of Jan 2012 (they have kept me sane & accountable)
Don't EVER give up, freedom is possible.....you just have to work for it.
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CONGRATS on 1 year!! I really enjoyed reading your post. Very inspirational to me and to others I am sure. Plus I just reallly need to read something this inspirational as this evening will be difficult for me.
Thanks
Jim
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Jim
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Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: Chicago
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Wow - I loved reading that and congrats on a year! Your story sounds like mine, up until the one year point and this was so inspirational! I'm at 80 days today but I feel motivated. thanks so much for the awesome update!
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Happy 1 year sober PCL!! :day1..So proud and happy for you my friend!! You have been a inspiration! I'm so happy to have shared January 2012 class with you...As we say in our class 'onward & upward'...You go girl!!:ghug3
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Congrats on one year sober!!! 
Come on over to the one year and over thread in daily support. We love to welcome newcomers. :ghug3
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-9-a.html
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