It Feels Like A Miracle Just Happened.....
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It Feels Like A Miracle Just Happened.....
My life has been difficult lately. I was fired from my job, former employer is fighting unemployment so no money coming in. I've applied for assistance but these things take a month or longer......I'm scared and full of fear. Most days I have been doubled over from intense abdominal pain from the stress.
I had an extremely bad day yesterday. I felt like I had nothing left in me to go forward. I have been emotionally and mentally exhausted.
And then I went to my home group AA meeting last night. I'm chairing the meeting for the month of January and I struggled through it. I didn't want to be there. I wanted to be home in bed, under my covers begging for God to simply let me stop breathing.
Anyway, a few folks in that meeting knew about my water heater breaking down about 2 weeks ago. After the meeting, my sponsor approached me to let me know that an anonymous donor in the group arranged from someone to replace my water tank today.
I simply cannot believe it. Never in my life has anyone been so generous. I wanted to post this last night but I was so overwhelmed with gratitude that I couldn't even really process this event.
And I can see I can't really simply state this even today. I am floored by the love shown to me by AA. I fought and struggled with AA for 2 years now. I even "put God on notice" last year.....my sponsor reminded me of that last night.
Wow. Just wow. I am thankful. Truly, truly thankful right now.
I had an extremely bad day yesterday. I felt like I had nothing left in me to go forward. I have been emotionally and mentally exhausted.
And then I went to my home group AA meeting last night. I'm chairing the meeting for the month of January and I struggled through it. I didn't want to be there. I wanted to be home in bed, under my covers begging for God to simply let me stop breathing.
Anyway, a few folks in that meeting knew about my water heater breaking down about 2 weeks ago. After the meeting, my sponsor approached me to let me know that an anonymous donor in the group arranged from someone to replace my water tank today.
I simply cannot believe it. Never in my life has anyone been so generous. I wanted to post this last night but I was so overwhelmed with gratitude that I couldn't even really process this event.
And I can see I can't really simply state this even today. I am floored by the love shown to me by AA. I fought and struggled with AA for 2 years now. I even "put God on notice" last year.....my sponsor reminded me of that last night.
Wow. Just wow. I am thankful. Truly, truly thankful right now.
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Originally Posted by SoberFallon 
I wanted to be home in bed, under my covers begging for God to simply let me stop breathing.
an anonymous donor in the group arranged from someone to replace my water tank today.
an anonymous donor in the group arranged from someone to replace my water tank today.
You pray to die and he sends a plumber !!
All the best.
Bob R
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Originally Posted by 2granddaughters
You just can't trust God .......
You pray to die and he sends a plumber !!
All the best.
Bob R
Hes so awesome..
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I have been a part of this AA meeting for 2 years and made it my home group.
They have all seen me struggle for the past 2 years but they've hung in there with me. They loved me when I couldn't even love myself.
They have watched me get entirely too many start over tokens.
After a 6 month hiatus I crawled back to AA in early December. I was completely broken and worn down. I was FINALLY ready to admit I was powerless over alcohol. I fought the idea of powerlessness for so long but I realized I was never going to win against The Beast.
Their love absolutely overwhelms me. It's a love I have never experienced. I'm so grateful to AA and its members. I kicked, fought and flipped them off, yet they still love me.
I'm thick-headed, that's for sure. But they patiently waited until I could get to complete acceptance.
Above all else, my God stood by me. He gave me the strength yesterday when I gave up.
They have all seen me struggle for the past 2 years but they've hung in there with me. They loved me when I couldn't even love myself.
They have watched me get entirely too many start over tokens.
After a 6 month hiatus I crawled back to AA in early December. I was completely broken and worn down. I was FINALLY ready to admit I was powerless over alcohol. I fought the idea of powerlessness for so long but I realized I was never going to win against The Beast.
Their love absolutely overwhelms me. It's a love I have never experienced. I'm so grateful to AA and its members. I kicked, fought and flipped them off, yet they still love me.
I'm thick-headed, that's for sure. But they patiently waited until I could get to complete acceptance.
Above all else, my God stood by me. He gave me the strength yesterday when I gave up.
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Just 1 of the 8,573 reasons outside of the 12 steps and bigbook why it's great to be part of AA.
I too have seen many similar miracles. All we need do sometimes is pray, put one foot in front of the other, and trust. That's how I've been working my program since about 3 days before I got sober.
I too have seen many similar miracles. All we need do sometimes is pray, put one foot in front of the other, and trust. That's how I've been working my program since about 3 days before I got sober.
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Originally Posted by SoberFallon
He gave me the strength yesterday when I gave up.
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson
Copyright © 1984 Mary Stevenson, from original 1936 text, All rights reserved
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First class attitude, SF.
We once had a new guy who needed a lot, and members came through.
One evening he was sitting on the donated plushy couch in his new apartment. Looking around he saw the furniture and electronics, the kitchen and bath stuff surrounding him. Most would be happy, but being twisted and new he started to hate himself for not being able to provide for himself and his son, spiraling down into a state where he decided he would kill himself because he was so ineffective at getting along in life and would never be a good provider and wasn't worthy...
I can't tell you how hard we later laughed about this-we bearly kept in our chairs.
We once had a new guy who needed a lot, and members came through.
One evening he was sitting on the donated plushy couch in his new apartment. Looking around he saw the furniture and electronics, the kitchen and bath stuff surrounding him. Most would be happy, but being twisted and new he started to hate himself for not being able to provide for himself and his son, spiraling down into a state where he decided he would kill himself because he was so ineffective at getting along in life and would never be a good provider and wasn't worthy...
I can't tell you how hard we later laughed about this-we bearly kept in our chairs.
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