cmhcali

Got an eviction notice last night. I didnt realize it happened so fast when someone relapses. It has been a month and a half total. Of which 20 days were spent sober. My fiance brings home over $6000 a month.

Anyways I left last night. Just really need support

MLH2282

Good for you! Relapse does happen so fast, and no one but the addict really knows when or why it happens. I hate the feeling that I always have to be on the lookout for the signs. I think it prevents me from ever truly enjoying good times. I am at the point where it simply isn't worth it anymore. I don't have anything against addicts, in fact I've been in love with one for over 3 years and I have immense respect and admiration for RA, but I have reached a point in my life where I don't want that cloud constantly hanging over my future.

I commend you on your sobriety and hope you continue your success.

Dee74

I'm sorry to read this cmhcali but I'm glad you came back here, and really glad to see you're still firmly in recovery

sounds to me like you've done the right thing for yourself.

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zoso77

Hey...

That was a courageous decision you made. That takes a lot of strength.

I also know this hurts like hell. And while I don't want to sound trite when I say it will pass, it will pass, in time. Sit with it as best you can. Do a lot of self care. Be kind and gentle to yourself. You will be OK, even though it probably doesn't feel that way right now.

ZoSo

Kindeyes

I'm so sorry to hear this.......

Take care of you and vent here when you need to.

gentle hugs
ke

dollydo

We are here for you, keep posting.

cmhcali

Thanks! It is so tough. He said he is going to talk to his boss tomorrow about going to detox. He will probably loose his job and health insurance but I didn't mention that. I did tell him that him going to get help does not mean I come back. I have been doing a lot of work on myself. I miss him like crazy but I know it is no life to live. Addiction is selfish and I don't want a selfish partner. I went to go get some things today from our place made sure he wasn't home. Our cat is still with him as I couldn't take her with me. Staying at a friends with a dog. I cried my eyes out and let er know I would be back for her. He is taking care of her which is good.