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Old 01-07-2013, 05:44 PM
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Teetering On The Edge

I think I hit my limit today. I've was fired from my job at 14 days sober. I have $74 to my name. My water tank died last Wednesday. I had someone I know in AA look at it this morning and it's a goner. And I can't afford to have it fixed. So I'll be living in the 1800s for now.

I've spent almost a month applying to jobs with absolutely no response. Nothing.

I can't take anymore. The only thing holding me back from drinking right now is the fact that I can't afford it. I did see light at the end of the tunnel a few weeks ago but it's dimmed so much I can't see it.

I'm also trying to avoid my sponsor. I love her but she's had nothing positive to say to me. On the job front I hear from her: "expect to be without a job for at least 6 months".....On the water tank I hear "yeah, good luck with that". She also made it clear that I was not welcome to come to her house if I needed a shower.

I still go to AA meetings every day and try to focus on the positive. It's great for an hour but when that hour is up, my reality is still there. I have no one to ask for financial assistance. It's an extremely lonely feeling.

I finish with group therapy this week and it's terrifying to me. Once it's over I have all day, every day with myself. TV is out of the question - I cancelled service because it's not a necessary expense. I limit myself to 1 AA meeting a day because I can't even afford to put gas in my car.

I did allow myself to cry for a bit this afternoon. I needed to reel it in though because if I let myself cry too long I won't get back to any chance of sanity.

At 40 days sober, my life has gotten significantly worse. I do realize that drinking isn't the answer but it sure would help to pass the time.

I'm sorry to the blubbering. It's been an exceptionally hard day, especially after finding out there's no hope to repair the water tank. It feels like the last straw.

My heart just hurts. Breathing even hurts.
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I am so sorry you are having to deal with all this. I have no advice, but here is a hug
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The only thing I know for sure about your situation is that drinking will only make it worse. Please don't drink over this. :ghug3
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Have you tried collecting unemployment?
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I'm so sorry all of this is happening to you. I think everything you are feeling is normal and natural given the circumstances. I don't really have any advice except to keep plugging along and use and and all supports you can get.
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I'm sorry you haven't found employment yet . I have no idea what it's like in the US, Fallon but don't give up looking.

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Thanks for the responses. I've been wandering around my house all day trying to keep it all inside.

I've filed for unemployment but it takes around a month before I'll know anything. The company that fired me can contest it. Knowing this company very well, I'm certain they will contest it.

The bills are stacking, the food in the pantry is shrinking and the poor cats are almost out of food.

I'm just feeling completely overwhelmed. I've always had to struggle to get through life but this is the worst it's ever been and it doesn't seem it's going to get any better in the near future.

I'm trying my best to get through this without drinking. I will go to bed shortly and pray for a better day tomorrow.
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I am so sorry you are struggling right now.
I think you might want to think about looking for a alternate sponsor, A sponsor should not make us feel bad when times are tough (Of course a Sponsor should not enable us either but to offer nothing but negative comments in times of trouble is not a good sign of a sponsor in my opinion) Perhaps there are other meetings you can go to where you can find a temporary alternate sponsor.

Secondly, I do not know the area but I have found some information regarding financial assistance for utilities, heating and shelter in Indiana. Please check out some of these resources, perhaps they can be of some assistance to you.

Indianapolis Marion County assistance programs.

Below you will find where to turn to in Indianapolis for aid. Get help with bills, housing expenses, foreclosure and mortgage assistance, and much more.

Get housing and funds for rent assistance

Almost $6 million in funds is being provided to 20 local organization and charities. The money will be used to prevent evictions, help with monthly rent, and also to find housing for anyone who is currently homeless. These twenty local agencies will be providing these grants for both families and individuals who are at risk of becoming homeless or being evicted. The funds can be used for a variety of services, and can be used to help pay for and offer both security and utility deposits, pay for short and medium-term rental assistance, regular and monthly utility bills, offering motel vouchers, and also give moving cost assistance. The program even helps people reduce their debt and improve their credit ratings, from debt management plans and other services.

If someone is currently homeless, the grants can be used to help coordinate, arrange, monitor and deliver housing-related services. This is fairly broad, and can include legal services, outreach and engagement, help with developing individualized housing plans, credit repair and counseling, as well as housing search and placement services.

Some of the charities and organizations receiving the $6 million dollars includes Community Alliance of the Far Eastside Inc., Southeast Community Services Inc., The Salvation Army Social Service Center, HVAF of Indiana Inc, Christamore House Family and Community Center, Children's Bureau Inc., Concord Neighborhood Center, Fathers and Families Center, Indiana Legal Services Inc., Mary Rigg Neighborhood Center, Martin Luther King Community Center, Volunteers of America of Indiana Inc., Oasis Christian CDC, HealthNet Inc. (Homeless Initiative Program), Forest Manor Multi-Service Center Inc., Flanner House of Indianapolis Inc., John H. Boner Community Center, Hawthorne Social Service Association Inc., PACE/OAR Inc. and more.

To learn more, call the Community Action of Greater Indianapolis, Inc. at (317) 396-1800.

General help for bills, rent, employment services, counseling, and other services

Catholic Charities Indianapolis (phone number 317.236.1512) provides low income and other individuals in need of help with resources and services. Get access to crisis financial assistance, counseling, family services, senior and elder services, caregiver support, job training, educational and social programming for at-risk youth, refugee and immigrant services, pregnancy and adoption services, emergency shelter and transitional housing.

This Marion County Indiana branch of the Catholic Charity organization works with local churches and parishes to help the needy. In addition to those emergency assistance programs mentioned above, they can work with families to help them address the cause of their poverty. More information.

Community Alliance of the Far Eastside, Inc., known as CAFE for short, offer services including economic and workforce development, employment services, youth and senior programs, and access to social services. 317.890.3288.

If you need access to child care and services, job training, and more contact Hawthorne Social Service Association, Inc. at 317.637.4312. Some of the services offered to Indianapolis families include all day childcare for ages 4-5, before school and after school childcare services, summer day camp and childcare, senior citizens hot home-cooked lunch and transportation to medical appointments. In addition, this non-profit agency also helps families and individuals move toward long term self-sufficiency by providing them with employment assistance, financial literacy education, help reducing debts, and access to public and government benefit programs.

All low income and struggling Marion County families may be able to receive aid from the Indianapolis Urban League. The organization administers an array of assistance programs and services in the areas of foreclosure counseling, diversity and race relations, skilled workforce development and employment services, family services, rent, heating bill and utility assistance, technology and job training. Call them at 317.693.7603, or learn more on Indiana foreclosure assistance programs.

The Indianapolis Marion County Salvation Army, which can be reached at 317.937.7000, provides emergency assistance for paying bills; emergency shelter and housing aid for women and women with children who seek safety from homelessness and/or domestic violence, senior programs, and many other services. A focus of the Salvation Army is on addressing basic needs such as food, rent, housing and heating bill assistance, as funding allows. Read more Indianapolis Salvation Army.

The Community Action of Greater Indianapolis, Inc. provides low to moderate income individuals with a variety of services and programs to help pay bills, and also support to help them get established and back on their feet. Phone (317) 396-1800. A sampling of the programs offered include :

Housing counseling - Receive foreclosure counseling, help with credit card and medical debt, and home buyer programs.
Debt assistance - Learn about debt management plans and how lawyers can arbitrate your credit card and medical debts. More.
Energy bill assistance - Several programs that provide financial aid for paying heating and utility bills, as well as energy conserving programs are available.
Home repairs - Receive Emergency Home Repair and improvement services to qualifying clients in Marion County Indiana including roof repair and/or replacement, electrical wiring, gutters, plumbing, insulation, floor, and foundation repairs.
Food aid - They operate a mobile food pantry which involves a partnership that was created with Gleaners Food Bank to provide food and groceries each and every month to people in need.
Indianapolis based Christ Church Cathedral provides qualified individuals with financial assistance of up to $50 that may be used towards paying rent or utility bills (not both). The church only serve the first 10 people on Tuesday mornings. (317) 636-4577.

Fountain Square Salvation Army Community Center, which can be reached at (317) 632-0156, provides temporary financial assistance and grants for paying bills and expenses. The agency provide help with housing costs, such as rent and mortgage payments, utility and heating bills, and the Salvation Army may also have limited financial assistance available for paying for medical or prescription co-pays or transportation expenses (vehicle repairs/bus tickets).

Community Services Department - The Obama stimulus program created a rental program called the Homelessness Prevention Fund. The Community Services Department runs the program in the Indianapolis area. They provide funds for paying rent, eviction prevention services, money for security deposits, and other forms of housing aid. Dial (317) 233-1814.

American Legion, Department of Indiana - Membership eligible, Honorably Discharged veterans with dependent children living in the home can apply for emergency financial assistance for paying bills and expenses. Get assistance in paying for basic needs including clothing, heating bills, shelter, utilities, rent assistance, food, medical and dental care (which requires pre-approval). 777 North Meridian Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46204. Phone (317) 630-1300 for nearest American Legion Post to make application.

Anna's House - Offers limited financial assistance on a case-by-case basis, limited to once per household per year, to help pay rent or utilities. The Marion County Indiana organization offers a variety of services to qualified residents, including limited financial assistance and case management. Apply for or get information on how to get help with rent, mortgage, heating bills or utilities. All of this aid may be provided to clients in crisis situations when funds are available. Call (317) 637-4376. 303 North Elder Street, Indianapolis, IN 46222. Call (317) 631-5504

Financial assistance from your town in Indianapolis – Marion County. Each town is required to offer residents assistance with basic needs, such as housing needs including rent, mortgages, and energy bills. Other programs can provide food, medical care, clothing, and household goods.

Center Township Trustee, Marion County, 863 Massachusetts Avenue, Indianapolis, Indiana, (317) 633-3610
Decatur Township Trustee, Marion County, 5410 South High School Road, Indianapolis, Indiana 46221 (317) 856-6600
Franklin Township Trustee, Marion County, 6231 South Arlington Avenue, Indianapolis, IN 46237 (317) 780-1700
Perry Township Trustee, Marion County, 4925 South Shelby Street, Suite 300, Indianapolis, Indiana 46227 (317) 788-4810
Pike Township Trustee, Marion County, 5665 Lafayette Road, Suite C, Indianapolis, Indiana 46254. Call (317) 291-5801
Warren Township Trustee, Marion County, 501 North Post Road, Suite A, Indianapolis, Indiana 46219. Dial (317) 327-8947 for information.
Washington Township Trustee, Marion County, 5302 North Keystone Avenue, Suite E, Indianapolis, Indiana 46220. Telephone number (317) 327-8800
Wayne Township Trustee, Marion County, 700 North High School Road, Indianapolis, IN 46241 (317) 241-4191
Lawrence Township Trustee, Marion County, 4455 McCoy Street, Lawrence, IN 46226 (317) 890-0011
Community/ Neighborhood Centers operate in most cities and towns in the county. The centers offer the low income and local residents with a variety of services, including case management and limited financial assistance, to community members living within set boundaries. When funds are available, clients and families in crisis situations may apply for help with paying rent, utilities, heating bills, or transportation. Specialists at the centers can also help in applying for federal and state of Indiana government assistance programs.

Concord Neighborhood Center, 1310 South Meridian Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46225
Fay Biccard Glick Neighborhood Center At Crooked Creek, 2990 West 71st Street, Indianapolis, IN 46268. Dial (317) 293-2600
Hawthorne Community Center, 70 North Mount Street, Center for Working Families, Indianapolis, IN 46222, phone number (317) 637-4312
John H. Boner Community Center, 2236 East 10th Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46201.Dial (317) 264-1379
Martin Luther King Community Center, 40 West 40th Street, Indianapolis, IN 46208, Call (317) 923-4581.
Flanner House Of Indianapolis, 2424 Martin Luther King Jr. Street. Indianapolis, Indiana 46208. Call (317) 925-4231 ext. 256.
Southeast Community Services, 901 South Shelby Street. Fountain Square Center, Indianapolis, Indiana 46203. Telephone number (317) 236-7400.
Forest Manor Multi-Service Center – The not for profit provides individuals with assessment, counseling, referral to local charities and government programs, advocacy, outreach, and follow-up services. All services are for community members who live within set boundaries. While funding is limited, clients in crisis situations may apply for help with paying for their rent, mortgage, or utility bills. 5603 East 38th Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46218. Call (317) 545-1204 to request help.

La Plaza – The Latino/Hispanic community in Central Indiana can call this organization for access to assistance. In addition to helping with energy bills, medications, and housing expenses, the agency also offers general services including case management, outreach, and advocacy on a low income family’s behalf. 8902 East 38th Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46226. Call (317) 890-3292

Roberts Park United Methodist Church – Only a few people can get help each week. Get up to $25 for utility bills, prescription drug vouchers, and bus passes. Assistance is provided at most once per year. 401 North Delaware Street, Indianapolis, Indiana 46204, (317) 635-1636

Programs and organizations that focus on providing rent assistance in Indianapolis exist as well. These will be in addition to the resources and services listed above.

Indianapolis assistance programs and non-profit agencies that can help anyone in Indiana

These resources can help individuals and families all across Indianapolis and Marion County as well as the entire state of Indiana.

Indiana Section 8 housing programs
Indiana foreclosure help and mortgage assistance
Indiana HUD foreclosure prevention and counseling
Indiana utility and heating bill help. Click here.
Indiana free legal advice
Indiana free community clinics
Dental care from centers in Indiana. More.
Free food banks in Indiana.
Legal help for housing and foreclosure issues, civil cases, and more

The non-profit law firm of The Indiana Legal Services, Inc. helps seniors as well as low-income individuals. It provides free advice on civil legal problems such mortgage and foreclosure problems, domestic violence, child abuse, landlord/tenant evictions, mortgage defaults, government and public assistance programs such as TANF, Medicaid, Medicare, SSI, SSD, food stamps, unemployment, health insurance and medical care, special education, predatory lending, consumer fraud, fair debt collection practices. Click here to learn more, or call them at 1.800.869.0212.

Another firm that provides many of the same pro bono legal services as indicated above is the Indianapolis Legal Aid Society. They really help with many of the issues indicated immediately above, including free mortgage help and foreclosure counseling. Call this firm at 317.635.9538.

Foreclosure assistance in Indianapolis

Neighborhood Christian Legal Clinic (dial (317) 429-4131) provides housing and debt assistance on issues such as foreclosure, mortgage delinquency, renter assistance, loss mitigation, Government Housing Choice Voucher Program, public housing, money and debt management and reduction programs, fair housing and homeless assistance programs.

Momentive Consumer Credit Counseling Service is a HUD approved agency that provides information and guidance to people who have questions about their mortgage documents, who need foreclosure or mortgage help, or have foreclosure issues such as how to stop, stall or avoid a foreclosure filing on their home. Most consumer credit agencies can direct people to a wide number of mortgage assistance programs. Call the Indianapolis based agency at (866) 722-9248.

Free food

Second Helpings (p: 317.632.2664) provides perishable and nonperishable free food and groceries which is then prepared by volunteers into nutritious meals and distributed by local charities and non-profit agencies. Other places to turn to for free food or a pantry include Christ United Methodist ((317) 882-1549), Brightwood Community Center (dial (317) 546-8200), Community Caring and Sharing (phone (317) 243-8023), and St. Timothy Episcopal Church (phone (317) 784-6925). Locate many more Indianapolis food banks that offer free food, possibly clothing, and other aid such as holiday meals and gifts.

Community clinics that provide health care

Several community clinics are listed below. Marion County does have a number of other government certified non-profit health care centers and charity medical programs. Read more Indianapolis clinics.

Learning Well, Inc. is a facility that runs a free medical clinic operated by Community Health Network to adults and children without health insurance for immunizations, acute care, examinations, general check ups, first aid and write prescriptions if warranted. Phone (317) 423-8425.

Receive dental care and assistance from the following two locations. Some programs may be free, some may base your dental bills on a sliding fee scale. HealthNet Community Health Centers ((317) 782-2127) as well as as well as the Indianapolis-Marion County Health and Hospital Corp. Marion County Health Department (dial (317) 221-2329)
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SoberFallon, I know it seems bleak, but it will be so much worse if you drink. But I think you already know that. Do you have any friends or family around? Is there no one you could ask for help...maybe a short loan.....a bag of groceries..... a warm shower? I know in my town, and at my church, we have a manna pantry that is absolutely free to anyone that asks. If they need it, and we've got it, they get it. Have you looked at different church organizations? The Salvation Army? A local shelter ....(I'm just throwing out ideas as they hit me.....) Why not check out your local library....lots of free stuff to do and read there.

Don't give up. I'm praying for you.
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Wow.....SeekSobriety just offered a gold mine!!
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Found this online, may be a resource for you...

Indiana food banks

I've been very close to your situation and it's completely scary and overwhelming. Just take it a day at a time, small steps. Try some of these resources to get back on your feet. Definitely apply for unemployment-they may say no, but they may say yes and that will make you feel a lot better.
I don't know much about sponsors, but I would look for a new one. Their responses do not seem helpful or supportive.

Can you do something like babysit that would bring instant cash for gas,etc.?

Hang in there, we are here so you can vent all you need to! There are rock bottoms sober too, it can only go up right?
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Baby sit.....pet sit.....house sit.....all important jobs that pay cash.
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Also Low-Cost Pet Services | Pet food bank

> FACE Low-Cost Spay/Neuter Clinic: Spay and neuter surgeries, vaccines and microchipping. (317) 638-3223; facespayneuter.org.

> FIDO/ACC Pet Food Pantry: First and third Saturdays of the month, noon to 4 p.m. (317) 221-1314; fidoindy.org.

> Hamilton County Low Cost Spay Neuter Clinic: Spay and neuter surgeries, heartworm and flea treatments and vaccines. (317) 706-0537; lowcostclinic.org.

> Hawthorne Community Center Low-Cost Medical Clinic: Minor medical care and vaccines every Wednesday 5 to 7 p.m. (317) 716-2291.

> Humane Society of Indianapolis: Vaccines, microchipping and pet food pantry. (317) 872-5650; indyhumane.org.
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Soberfallon, do you have a University degree? If so, you could consider going overseas to teach english in an Asian country, especially Korea. The company pays for your plane ticket, apartment and will usually give you a loan once you arrive. Just a suggestion.
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Thanks for all of the ideas! SeekSobriety, I don't live in Marion County but I will definitely research services offered in the county where I live (I'm just west of Indianapolis in Hendricks County).

I think the babysitting, pet sitting, etc. is also an excellent idea. I live in a smallish subdivision but I'm surrounded by 2 or 3 much larger subdivisions. It would be pretty easy for me to make up flyers to put into mailboxes. That would really help with gas expenses and food expenses. I'm not a big eater so I don't blow through food easily and a little can go a long way. I've been pretty much living on PB&J sandwiches and a lot of pasta.

Again, many thanks for your support and all of the fantastic ideas!

I'll go put away my golden lined pity pot now....
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Dang SeekSobriety.....you're a Gold Mine!

Thanks for all of this very valuable information! The last thing I want to do is have my 2 little kitties suffer. They've only offered love & support to me. And they really warm up my lap on these very cold days and nights!
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nomis, unfortunately, I do not have a university degree. But it's a great suggestion nonetheless! Appreciate it.
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Sounds like you are in a good neighborhood to pet, baby and house sit....... I don't need baby sitters these days, but I pay my pet sitters very well. It's worth it to me. You sound like a pet lover, so this may be good for you. Make up those flyers!! Keep us
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Keep praying and don't pick up the first drink...Not sure what the deal is with your sponsor....What step are you working on?...I'll send you some prayers myself....I was where you are....I had nothing....Just know you can get out of it.
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Sapling, I was on Step 8 when I relapsed. We're now starting back at the beginning. I do this with my sponsor on Wednesday nights.

I have learned my stumbling block was actually Step 1. I understood that my life was unmanageable but I wasn't accepting the powerlessness.

I'm stubborn. I went through the steps but it the back of my mind I wasn't willing to concede a victory to alcohol. I viewed this as a weakness.

Now, I am a firm believer that I am indeed powerless over alcohol. I never did win against the Beast. And I never will. It took me 2 years and one helluva relapse but I finally get it.
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