Trying Again
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Trying Again
Hi all,
I have been drinking abusively for 20 years, only realised this 3 years ago and have gone long periods without drinking related incidents over the past 3 years, 2 years ago I drank so much that I blacked out and passed out at a party, this dangerous behaviour frightened me and I stopped drinking heavily for two years, I thought that I had it all worked out and that I could drink normally like most other people but, over the past 6 months, I let it build and build again until I put myself in another dangerous situation including a blackout. I recently met the love of my life and he's being incredibly supportive but I have risked losing him over and over again over the past few months and it's all been alcohol related without exception.
I'm really hoping that I can stop now with the help of counseling and getting past childhood issues.
It would be nice to have people to speak to who understand :ghug3
I have been drinking abusively for 20 years, only realised this 3 years ago and have gone long periods without drinking related incidents over the past 3 years, 2 years ago I drank so much that I blacked out and passed out at a party, this dangerous behaviour frightened me and I stopped drinking heavily for two years, I thought that I had it all worked out and that I could drink normally like most other people but, over the past 6 months, I let it build and build again until I put myself in another dangerous situation including a blackout. I recently met the love of my life and he's being incredibly supportive but I have risked losing him over and over again over the past few months and it's all been alcohol related without exception.
I'm really hoping that I can stop now with the help of counseling and getting past childhood issues.
It would be nice to have people to speak to who understand :ghug3
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Sounds like you've had enough of alcohol.
Be strong and quit drinking.
Then you will realise how much better life will be and it will go from being a difficult challenge to being a total pleasure.
Seriously - stand up to alcohol and you will feel totally free.
Be strong and quit drinking.
Then you will realise how much better life will be and it will go from being a difficult challenge to being a total pleasure.
Seriously - stand up to alcohol and you will feel totally free.
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Thanks, I need support, I live in a place where everyone I know drinks excessively for fun but they don't seem to suffer like I do, I've had two days of panic attacks and rigid fear, hopefully it will be out of my system tomorrow and I can start moving forward again, i did 6 months almost entirely sober and they were the best 6 months of my life so I'm ashamed and embarrassed that I let myself slide again.
Welcome Villager,
Logging on here and sharing your story is a great first step. I knew for a long time that I was drinking more than I should have been, and kept thinking I should cut down. I tried to moderate, and it would work for a short time. I thought I should stop and it lasted for short periods, and then in October I stopped because I wanted to be done.
Nothing major happened, but I was ready to be done. You can do this for you. I found that posting and reading on SR daily.
Looking forward to seeing you on here!!
Logging on here and sharing your story is a great first step. I knew for a long time that I was drinking more than I should have been, and kept thinking I should cut down. I tried to moderate, and it would work for a short time. I thought I should stop and it lasted for short periods, and then in October I stopped because I wanted to be done.
Nothing major happened, but I was ready to be done. You can do this for you. I found that posting and reading on SR daily.
Looking forward to seeing you on here!!
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Thank you! I know how great life can be when I'm not drinking, it's like I was fully in denial for years then, even though I knew it was an issue, I stayed in denial a little bit. Now I feel like it's slapped me around the face and I have to stop otherwise I risk losing everything.
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Welcome, you are not alone. I isolated myself and felt alone and am now starting over yet again. I know that I have to seek out help and have support and accountability. It is hard for me to stay convinced that I need help. I forget quickly and relapse.
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That's part of the problem for me too - "I can do it on my own, I don't need help" It's on eof the hardest things for me to admit. AA meetings where I live are a miserable affair too so they really don't appeal.
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