gr8t2bme

Hi

I'm geting this awful strange feeling that I can drink again and It will be OK. Nothing major happening in my life to make me drink, Just a strong urge to drink and the head games that I will be able to handle it. Please tell me this feeling will pass because I'm afraid to pick up again. I keep thinking of the consequences but the devil in my head is saying, It's ok,nothing will happen to you.

Thanks for listening

Theresa

mfanch

Spiritual/emotional drunkenness --> Mental drunkenness --> Physical drunkenness

For me, the spiritual/emotional and then mental drunkenness always happened before the physical drunk. Dealing with the spiritual drunk always made the mental one go away. So far I haven't had to pick up the drink.

ReadyAtLast

It is a devil.It's your addictive voice.It will tell you anything to get you to drink. Don't entertain it.

Melanomagirl

Don't give in to the urge! If you don't drink then nothing bad will happen...if you do drink it may lead to more drinking. I thought I could handle a little wine during the holidays. I actually did well as far as not drinking too much. But a week later and I realized I had wine 4 or 5 nts out of 7 😝. Now I'm having a hard time getting motivated again. I wish I had just stuck to the "no drinking"...Just my two cents.

TrixMixer

Hi Theresa,

How long have you been sober? Is it worth the risk of detoxing again?

......and the simple answer to this question for alcoholics is:

No you cannot drink ever again--ever. Any day we take a drink we start the cycle all over. Take the easy way out and Never try to drink again.

duane1

My AV still regularly tells me that it is ok to drink even though 7 months ago I had a daily pain in my liver. Probably would be a good idea to confront your voice and tell it who is in control.

terribob

Definitely a devil. Most of us cannot drink under any circumstances. If you're like most of us, it can only lead to disaster.

hamabi

gr8, at least you almost made it to 8 months. Looking over your posts...early on you made an impressive list of what made your drinking so much fun. I'm surprised given how it goes for you when drinking that it seems now like a good idea to visit Disneyland again.

But, our heads can be funny sometimes.

avocado

It's possible you can drink again, but if you have doubts about it, my suspicion is that you absolutely can not and should not, and you should listen to that cautious side of yourself.

instant

All things pass, but me careful what ideas you feed


(thanks dee for the two wolves story)

Dee74

Any time I get that feeling I know it's a lie, Theresa.
Look back in your heart at the things that bought you here to SR nearly 3 years ago now.

You're on the right track now...whatever's causing you to doubt that right now...don't

D

FlyerNation

It seems so cliche and a scare tactic till you drink one time and months down the road back to where you were in your dark times then you realize it's the truth.

I was one to think that I wasn't even an alocoholic prior to getting sober and when I could handle it it'd be like I never was. Well I was wrong.

Sometimes unfortantely you have to learn on your own. I'm learning every day I struggle now.

Elphaba

Yes, I've felt like that, usually what I do is come to this site and read people's horror stories of relapse and remind myself I'm not unique. The feelings do pass, and I'm usually left with a greater insight and appreciation of my sobriety, and renewed gratitude. Don't do it, you'll be rewarded with empowerment.

Elisabeth888

Don't believe the lie! That is your addictive voice telling you that you can drink.

yestofreedom

you will regret it, when your not feeling good anymore.
i thought after a year, i'd be fine; its been long enough, i can handle it.

months later,ive gained weight, become paranoid and depressed.

"you're feeling fine because u aint drinking the wine!"