my birthday
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my birthday
i dont have any alcoholics in my life anymore. my husband died from his disease a year and a half ago now. i reflect today on how i feel inside.
i take care of me now and life is so much easier then it was when i worried
about him all the time. i am alone. sometimes very alone and i still think back on good times and cry a bit.
i cant believe i can even say this but it gets better.
when you finally are able to focus on yourself you will not believe how
peaceful you feel inside. life is easier without alcoholism is your life..
its my birthday and i care about me again. i realize i actually love myself and that is the best gift of my life. please find peace as i have...
i take care of me now and life is so much easier then it was when i worried
about him all the time. i am alone. sometimes very alone and i still think back on good times and cry a bit.
i cant believe i can even say this but it gets better.
when you finally are able to focus on yourself you will not believe how
peaceful you feel inside. life is easier without alcoholism is your life..
its my birthday and i care about me again. i realize i actually love myself and that is the best gift of my life. please find peace as i have...
Happy Happy Birthday to You!
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if what I said helps just one person who is struggling and hurting from a relationship with someone that has this terrible disease then I am glad I shared. I understand and read these posts and I hurt for everyone that posts here. I used to feel like I was trying to climb mt everest with no legs most of the time. Pretty impossible but I kept on trying. I did all the wrong things and enabled and took care of him til he died. I remember the healthy happy sober man now and am working on healing me. I suffered greatly and I have a lot of mending to do but I'm not a kid anymore and I know I don't want that disease in my life anymore unless it's to help someone that wants help. that is the key word, say it over and over again to yourself "does this person truly WANT help". You know the answer, you do, it's there, find that answer. hugs to all who still struggle. I am so glad I have found life without that struggle. peace/M
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