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Today I am missing the Family Christmas Celebration. Me and 2 of my kids will not be able to attend. Both my sisters and all their kids will be there. It has been a year since i have seen them. It is a 3 hour drive and Addicted Other owns the only car in the house.
I am sad... i wish i could be there. I have missed many family celebrations.
Part of me is ok with not going. Both sisters are still happily married to their first husbands. Both have good home lifes. I feel very much a black sheep. I am leaving my third long term marriage/relationship... the last 2 have been addicts. Yes they both go to the same NA meetings... ugg...lol... and neither of them is in active recovery... anyway... just dont feel like seeing everyone and how great it is for them all. I know they all have their problems. Just wish my problems weren't so out in the open. I hate getting that "poor you" look from them even when i tell them i am fine.
Carrie
I am sad... i wish i could be there. I have missed many family celebrations.
Part of me is ok with not going. Both sisters are still happily married to their first husbands. Both have good home lifes. I feel very much a black sheep. I am leaving my third long term marriage/relationship... the last 2 have been addicts. Yes they both go to the same NA meetings... ugg...lol... and neither of them is in active recovery... anyway... just dont feel like seeing everyone and how great it is for them all. I know they all have their problems. Just wish my problems weren't so out in the open. I hate getting that "poor you" look from them even when i tell them i am fine.
Carrie
I am sorry, however, 2013 is right around the corner, time for a change, time to dig deep into yourself, discover why you keep choosing unavailable addicted mates....there is a reason.
May 2013 be your year to discover the new improved you!
May 2013 be your year to discover the new improved you!
Poor you?? Not anymore, if you start working on yourself. Codependent No More is a great place to start. If you spend 2013 working on YOU, this time next year, you will be the bell of the ball at the next Christmas party!
Set a goal and stick to it!! You and your kids are worth it.
The best revenge is a life well lived!!
Set a goal and stick to it!! You and your kids are worth it.
The best revenge is a life well lived!!
(I find walking helps me get my mind ready to work on me. It's also good exercise to fight off depression and your kids may really enjoy it too.)
I will be keeping tabs on your progress. LOL
You can do this! Heck if I can, anyone can!
Woo Hoo!! Now, we are having a "coming out" party soon! Oh, how I love parties!! I can hardly wait to see Buff, Kitty, Harrison, and Lexi and tell them all about my codie escapades. Won't they be green with envy as their lives have become such a bore!!
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It feels amazing to have someone care. I know my mom cares... but she has had to love me from afar because of my issues.
Everyone else i keep away because i dont want them to be apart of my drama. I am shamed.
The one i wanted to care for me, AO, just asked me if i ever considered suicide, cause he wishes i did. I was weak and responded no because i love myself too much. That response opened up to having to hear insults of real women who love themselves are out making themselves look good.
I am normal and average. Could lose about 50 pounds. Only wear lip gloss... and normally just wash my hair and then put in a pony tail. I wear jeans and tshirts. I dont paint my nails. I love myself though.
I know what he says doesnt matter but it is hard to ignore.
Makes me think of the planes trains and automobiles movie... when john candy.is in the hotel and says " i like me. My wife likes me." Wish i had a "wife" who likes me.
Carrie
The Belle Of The Ball
Everyone else i keep away because i dont want them to be apart of my drama. I am shamed.
The one i wanted to care for me, AO, just asked me if i ever considered suicide, cause he wishes i did. I was weak and responded no because i love myself too much. That response opened up to having to hear insults of real women who love themselves are out making themselves look good.
I am normal and average. Could lose about 50 pounds. Only wear lip gloss... and normally just wash my hair and then put in a pony tail. I wear jeans and tshirts. I dont paint my nails. I love myself though.
I know what he says doesnt matter but it is hard to ignore.
Makes me think of the planes trains and automobiles movie... when john candy.is in the hotel and says " i like me. My wife likes me." Wish i had a "wife" who likes me.
Carrie
The Belle Of The Ball
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