The things you learn when your not drunk?
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The things you learn when your not drunk?
I haven't been drunk since 10/9 and my head constantly swims with sober thoughts, things I tried to cover up with drinking....
1) I have learned that no amount of numbing changes yourself or the people around you, it just procrastinates the inevitable.
2) I have learned that drinking yourself into a stupor won't bring loved ones back from the grave or ease the pain of life without them, it must be dealt with head on.
3) I have learned that I haven't always been nice, as a matter of fact I have been selfish and all about me in alot of ways and covered up feelings of guilt and self loathing with drinking.
4) I have learned that holding on to tight to things and sometimes letting go is the best thing, no matter how painful.
There are countless things I continue to learn, who knew at almost 40 I still have alot of growing up to do!
Happy Thursday SR!
1) I have learned that no amount of numbing changes yourself or the people around you, it just procrastinates the inevitable.
2) I have learned that drinking yourself into a stupor won't bring loved ones back from the grave or ease the pain of life without them, it must be dealt with head on.
3) I have learned that I haven't always been nice, as a matter of fact I have been selfish and all about me in alot of ways and covered up feelings of guilt and self loathing with drinking.
4) I have learned that holding on to tight to things and sometimes letting go is the best thing, no matter how painful.
There are countless things I continue to learn, who knew at almost 40 I still have alot of growing up to do!
Happy Thursday SR!
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Ciao Italia! I observed my "friends" a few weekends ago when I was designated driver drink to oblivion and slur their words, repeat the same things over and over, and not be "present"; that was ME way too many times in the past. It gave me a sense of pride and a sense of power of this demon we fight..........
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Have you ever noticed when drinking that the slightest thing becomes huge. It's like everything gets whacked out of proportion.
It's nice to just be real and not have to worry about all those "huge things" that were really only warped images in my mind, lol.
It's nice to just be real and not have to worry about all those "huge things" that were really only warped images in my mind, lol.
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Yep and I have triggers, certain people and things enrage me, drinking totally magnified that, being sober I see these triggers and can talk myself down. Besides, if I knock someone upside the head at least I won't have drunken added to my disorderly conduct 
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I am learning that maybe my marriage isn't fixable. But then again maybe it is. All of those reasons that I drank over my marriage, weren't made up. They were real and feeling tem sober is a very uncomfortable feeling, but it's real. And I appreciate that.
I have been there and know EXACTLY how you feel! HUGS!
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