Wanting a drink and the outcome
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Wanting a drink and the outcome
While at my parents house I had the most intense craving I have had since quitting.
While everyone was upstairs starting to open presents I found myself alone in the kitchen with many opened bottles of wine. I took one bottle, put it up to my nose and inhaled deeply... I had flashbacks of previous nights drinking.
I could smell the sweat of alcohol coming out of my pores. I could smell the aftermath of a night of drinking in the toilet. I could see the bloating in my face and my swollen eyes. I could feel my stomach bloating and the craving for greasy food. I could feel the unsatisfaction of chugging gallons of water and not getting enough to curb the dehydration. And on and on...
I no longer wanted that drink.
I went to the bathroom, puked, grabbed my diet Pepsi and a plate of cookies, and joined the rest of my family.
While everyone was upstairs starting to open presents I found myself alone in the kitchen with many opened bottles of wine. I took one bottle, put it up to my nose and inhaled deeply... I had flashbacks of previous nights drinking.
I could smell the sweat of alcohol coming out of my pores. I could smell the aftermath of a night of drinking in the toilet. I could see the bloating in my face and my swollen eyes. I could feel my stomach bloating and the craving for greasy food. I could feel the unsatisfaction of chugging gallons of water and not getting enough to curb the dehydration. And on and on...
I no longer wanted that drink.
I went to the bathroom, puked, grabbed my diet Pepsi and a plate of cookies, and joined the rest of my family.
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For me to place myself in a setting like
yours would make me feel extremely
nervous, anxiety would set in and I would
be vunerable. It would be like sending a
child in a candy store and telling him or
her you cant touch the candy. That just
is too much temptation for one small child.
Of course if I was that small child and was
told not to touch it, without thinking of the
consequences of what would follow, i would
sneak it, steal it because the temptation
of a sweet piece of candy is too much and
I want it and will go to any lengths to get
it.
If I cant have candy or alcohol then I cant be
around it because I have no will power to
stay away from something so powerful and
tempting. Something so pretty in its wrapping
and yet so deadly.
Having a plan of escape to remain sober thru
the holidays and family gathering was and still
is top priority in remaining sober 22 yrs later.
yours would make me feel extremely
nervous, anxiety would set in and I would
be vunerable. It would be like sending a
child in a candy store and telling him or
her you cant touch the candy. That just
is too much temptation for one small child.
Of course if I was that small child and was
told not to touch it, without thinking of the
consequences of what would follow, i would
sneak it, steal it because the temptation
of a sweet piece of candy is too much and
I want it and will go to any lengths to get
it.
If I cant have candy or alcohol then I cant be
around it because I have no will power to
stay away from something so powerful and
tempting. Something so pretty in its wrapping
and yet so deadly.
Having a plan of escape to remain sober thru
the holidays and family gathering was and still
is top priority in remaining sober 22 yrs later.
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