dedubya

I havent done it, but man the thoughts are racing. I need to ride my bicycle. Sorry, just where Im at.
dub

escapist

I know the feeling. I get it in the evenings around 6:00 pm. It sucks. I just ride it out. Watch TV , eat something, remember how screwed up I was 2 months ago. Anything but taking a drink.

Xune

If you haven't consumed alcohol, to my mind, you've not relapsed.

pipparina

good for you for recognizing the thoughts, and taking action against it. I think we all have days when we feel like we've drank, considering the crazy thoughts that go through our heads.

Mark75

I wish I know what to say to you dub, You are in a bad place... physically, emotionally, spiritually...

I haven't been to figure out where you are at with AA, really... but maybe find the first close meeting... and stand up when they ask if there is anyone new... and tell 'em you need some support and help... The face to face kind.

ReadyAtLast

I know howyou feel.I'm on day 15 and it's really hit me this afternoon

dedubya

Hey guys.
Mark- no way i can go to aa now. it works for me but im too messed in the head. it takes a lot of energy for me to order a subway sandwich these days. ridiculous. Lot of things going on.

I appreciate all of you. Im going bike riding in the neighborhood for a bit.
dub

Mark75

Have a good ride.

raja12

Hi there. The important thing is that you haven't. I'm on day 12 2day (again) and have been thin king about how much I would like to drink. But I'm not,and I hope not 2 again. Living in this moment,because that's all I can handle at the present time. Stay strong and positive. U can do it. You know that.
Whatever is going on now will eventually be the past,so stay focued on you and a brighter 2mrrw.