I let down my employer
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I let down my employer
It's nearly the end of the year so I think it's a good time to take inventory, good and bad. There was still too much drink in my life this year and quite a lot of bad consequences as a result.
The worst thing that happened last week was that I calculated I threw ten sickies in 2012. So for two solid weeks, I was two drunk to work, as my therapist pointed out. When I see it that way, I am really sad. I have a good job which I enjoy and which earns me money and respect and I wasted my talent by sitting at home alone drinking for two weeks. Plus there were many days when I wasn't due to work when I also drank.
I want to reclaim the time and to be more productive. I want to serve people in my job and I don't want to keep wasting days. Fortunately, I discussed the problem with my parents a few months ago and my father now rings me every single morning to check I am Ok and ready to go to work. Things have improved enormously since then and my attendance record is much, much better.
The worst thing that happened last week was that I calculated I threw ten sickies in 2012. So for two solid weeks, I was two drunk to work, as my therapist pointed out. When I see it that way, I am really sad. I have a good job which I enjoy and which earns me money and respect and I wasted my talent by sitting at home alone drinking for two weeks. Plus there were many days when I wasn't due to work when I also drank.
I want to reclaim the time and to be more productive. I want to serve people in my job and I don't want to keep wasting days. Fortunately, I discussed the problem with my parents a few months ago and my father now rings me every single morning to check I am Ok and ready to go to work. Things have improved enormously since then and my attendance record is much, much better.
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That's really nice of your dad. To be honest, even being sober I have let down my employer by being late and things like that. I'm a good worker but getting out of bed has always been a problem for me drunk or sober. I will try harder in the new year 
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Your dad sounds like a good egg.
I, like hypochondriac, need an ejector button on the bed, drunk or sober!
Sober now, and still can't get up!
Go to bed too late and potter and putz around every morning.
I am sooooooo bad.
But once I am at work, I am good!
I, like hypochondriac, need an ejector button on the bed, drunk or sober!
Sober now, and still can't get up!
Go to bed too late and potter and putz around every morning.
I am sooooooo bad.
But once I am at work, I am good!
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Hey Endless,
I had the same problem with previous employers. Forever throwing sickies because I was either still wasted, planning on using more or on a mother of a come down. I couldn't tell you how many days I have had off sick in the last few years. I know I have had long period of work where I have been signed off as 'sick' or 'depressed' when really I was just completely off my face.
But now I have a new employer, they are pretty strict on absence. I'm partially making sure I don't take a sick day for them and my colleagues but I am mainly doing it for me. Just to prove that I can actually get through a year without taking one. Obviously if I am ill or end up in hospital that's a different story. I hope your attendance gets better. You obviously have the support in place.
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I had the same problem with previous employers. Forever throwing sickies because I was either still wasted, planning on using more or on a mother of a come down. I couldn't tell you how many days I have had off sick in the last few years. I know I have had long period of work where I have been signed off as 'sick' or 'depressed' when really I was just completely off my face.
But now I have a new employer, they are pretty strict on absence. I'm partially making sure I don't take a sick day for them and my colleagues but I am mainly doing it for me. Just to prove that I can actually get through a year without taking one. Obviously if I am ill or end up in hospital that's a different story. I hope your attendance gets better. You obviously have the support in place.
Natom.
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Thanks for your support, everyone. It's been challenging to look at the consequences of my behaviour with clarity but I am glad I have done so. I am grateful that tonight I will go to be sober and not too tired and that puts me in a good state to go to work tomorrow.
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I thought that getting sober would just be an end to the hangovers and daft behaviour.
It has not been just that for me, I seem to have had a few lessons in morality too. I think I am a better human being for it.
I too rang in sick to work. When I was there I did not work as hard as I should have. It was wrong. I have a good job and I am looked after well and in return I skived or had my head down the toilet.
I lied a lot and had people I loved worry about me.
If I looked rough I said I was ill. I was not ill, I was hungover.
I blamed others for my drinking which was wrong.
I highlighted their flaws as a reason why I drank. Not nice. Not kind.
They might have had flaws but it was not the reason I drank. I drank because I was a drunk.
I was not there for people.
It was all about me.
I struggled with socialising and as a solution poured drink after drink down my neck and withdrew.
The clever thing to do would have been to shelve the drinking and seek proper medical help.
I missed birthdays and special occasions of people I loved.
I was not a good friend, partner, daughter, sister, granddaughter, employer.
But with 310 sober days, I am thankful to have gained this insight from what I call 'my dark days' and I can change things now rather than leaving it another 30 years and then it is too late.
Sleep well......and rise early!!
xxxx
It has not been just that for me, I seem to have had a few lessons in morality too. I think I am a better human being for it.
I too rang in sick to work. When I was there I did not work as hard as I should have. It was wrong. I have a good job and I am looked after well and in return I skived or had my head down the toilet.
I lied a lot and had people I loved worry about me.
If I looked rough I said I was ill. I was not ill, I was hungover.
I blamed others for my drinking which was wrong.
I highlighted their flaws as a reason why I drank. Not nice. Not kind.
They might have had flaws but it was not the reason I drank. I drank because I was a drunk.
I was not there for people.
It was all about me.
I struggled with socialising and as a solution poured drink after drink down my neck and withdrew.
The clever thing to do would have been to shelve the drinking and seek proper medical help.
I missed birthdays and special occasions of people I loved.
I was not a good friend, partner, daughter, sister, granddaughter, employer.
But with 310 sober days, I am thankful to have gained this insight from what I call 'my dark days' and I can change things now rather than leaving it another 30 years and then it is too late.
Sleep well......and rise early!!
xxxx
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