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A simple guy making his way
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
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Update
Needed to start a new thread. Don't want to read that other one at the moment.
The support I was shown through this has really helped. But I am not through this yet.
I woke disconnected from everything. Still in disbelief that this happened.
The numbness of looking at myself in the mirror.
I got a call from the hospital today. They said another doctor looked at my scans. I knew my nose was broken in two places. But I also have an orbital floor fracture around my eye. That's why it's so black.
It was a very difficult day at work. The thoughts about what happened and what came out of my mouth about was was supposed to have happened.
My relationship has been a good one. In many ways. But the drugs and drinking has taken its toll.
I took some time to just stare at me in the mirror when I got home from the doctor today. I wanted to be sure I took in ever nuance of the event from a physical point of view. I took a few pics to remind myself when I need it.
I am rather uncomfortable at the moment.
Kinda done with words today. I will check in again as things start to heal.
When I ask for answers to prayers I have gotten answers presented in a way that I found harsh. But.... I was not sure after a while of looking back I would have seen the answer had it not been what it was. I am very careful of what I ask for.
I think this happened because I prayed so hard to get better that what better way to emphasis what it is I will have come back from. What it is I need to do. A stop sign.
That makes sense to me. I need to make sense right now.
K
The support I was shown through this has really helped. But I am not through this yet.
I woke disconnected from everything. Still in disbelief that this happened.
The numbness of looking at myself in the mirror.
I got a call from the hospital today. They said another doctor looked at my scans. I knew my nose was broken in two places. But I also have an orbital floor fracture around my eye. That's why it's so black.
It was a very difficult day at work. The thoughts about what happened and what came out of my mouth about was was supposed to have happened.
My relationship has been a good one. In many ways. But the drugs and drinking has taken its toll.
I took some time to just stare at me in the mirror when I got home from the doctor today. I wanted to be sure I took in ever nuance of the event from a physical point of view. I took a few pics to remind myself when I need it.
I am rather uncomfortable at the moment.
Kinda done with words today. I will check in again as things start to heal.
When I ask for answers to prayers I have gotten answers presented in a way that I found harsh. But.... I was not sure after a while of looking back I would have seen the answer had it not been what it was. I am very careful of what I ask for.
I think this happened because I prayed so hard to get better that what better way to emphasis what it is I will have come back from. What it is I need to do. A stop sign.
That makes sense to me. I need to make sense right now.
K
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Ken, I am so very sorry that this happened. I am so sorry you are hurt. Keep moving forward with your recovery and also with the physical injuries you have that need to heal. Never forget that you are a good person and you deserve a good life. Allow this to be a life-changing experience for you.
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Ken you need a very good ophthalmology surgeon to repair your optical area. Or a very skilled plastics surgeon ( or maybe both)...specifically Plastic RECONSTRUCTIVE surgery specialist, not a cosmetics guy. Don't mess around, the repercussions to your vision and ability to breathe through your nose can affect you for the rest of your life. (i am not trying to be dramatic, but you don't need to have this done the wrong way)
if you want some inside info on who is good in your area, PM me...I will ask the Chief of Plastics when i go to work tomorrow....he knows everyone in the tri state area.
i'm sorry you still feel craptastic. you haven't commented on your relationship, but what would you tell ME if I had live-in partner beat the crap out of me? I don't know if you were attacked or he was restraining you....but it was his actions that caused your injuries. restraining you doesn't cause this type of injury.
feel better and try to relax....try a hot bath, (epsom salts if you have them) it might ease the soreness and help you unknot.
if you want some inside info on who is good in your area, PM me...I will ask the Chief of Plastics when i go to work tomorrow....he knows everyone in the tri state area.
i'm sorry you still feel craptastic. you haven't commented on your relationship, but what would you tell ME if I had live-in partner beat the crap out of me? I don't know if you were attacked or he was restraining you....but it was his actions that caused your injuries. restraining you doesn't cause this type of injury.
feel better and try to relax....try a hot bath, (epsom salts if you have them) it might ease the soreness and help you unknot.
A simple guy making his way
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Join Date: Apr 2012
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I have the name of a doctor the hospital recommended. I see him tomorrow. The guy I saw today says things are k from the nose perspective. Many times theses things just need to heal with no intervention. My eye socket is not a complete break just a fracture. So I need monitoring only.
I guess I will get around to commenting on the relationship when I have formed thoughts.
Thank you for the advice.
I guess I will get around to commenting on the relationship when I have formed thoughts.
Thank you for the advice.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
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I've had to deal with those awkward moments where you show up to work after the weekend with various cuts and bruises on your face. I usually then regal people with tales of saving an elderly lady from being mugged by thieves or boxing a kangaroo. Hopefully, those days are over for me because I really have run out of excuses. Hope you heal fast Weasel!
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I have been worried about you. I am relieved that you haven't been arrested for assaulting a police officer. I know you are hurting inside and out. Some of the most emotionally profound moments of my life happened while I stared in the mirror. I can remember them. I feel so sad for you. I'm so sorry.
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Been thinking about you Ken and I included you in my prayers today. I truly truly believe that although in a not so great place, you are right where you are supposed to be. Know that these terrible feelings will go away in time. My last relapse was similar to yours in that it was traumatizing and made me see that she is a person I never want to be again. Only a month later, my shame, guilt and remorse have lessened and yours will too. You have so many people rooting for you on here and my heart goes out to you because I can relate to how you are feeling. The more sober days you put in, the farther away you get from that night and those dreadful feelings. I wish you some rest and peace tonight. Please keep us posted as to how you are doing. Hugs!
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