This is going to be the hard part.
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This is going to be the hard part.
I'm exhausted and still stressed out. I am almost off work, and when I get done I'm going to go home.
Now here comes the hard part. I am in the habit of medicating my stress, exhaustion, frustration, confusion -- with a bottle of wine, especially -- ESPECIALLY on a Friday night. It would be so easy to just swing by the gorcery store, kick my shoes off, stretch out, putter around and open up that bottle.
It's the only way I know how to distance myself from the general beating I take all week. It's the only thing I've learned to do to feel better.
But I am not going to drink tonight.
I'm going to be posting here all night probably and I am going to try to just go to bed instead. I HAVE to sleep -- although I'm not kidding myself, I betcha anything part of the reason I feel so crap is because of withdrawal.
It's kind of interesting though. The worse I feel the more determined I am to try to feel better a normal way. If i feel this awful now I must have been seriously poisoning myself.
Anyway, hi everybody, I'm Medicatrix and I'll be posting here at least until I fall asleep. Which might be in like two hours
Now here comes the hard part. I am in the habit of medicating my stress, exhaustion, frustration, confusion -- with a bottle of wine, especially -- ESPECIALLY on a Friday night. It would be so easy to just swing by the gorcery store, kick my shoes off, stretch out, putter around and open up that bottle.
It's the only way I know how to distance myself from the general beating I take all week. It's the only thing I've learned to do to feel better.
But I am not going to drink tonight.
I'm going to be posting here all night probably and I am going to try to just go to bed instead. I HAVE to sleep -- although I'm not kidding myself, I betcha anything part of the reason I feel so crap is because of withdrawal.
It's kind of interesting though. The worse I feel the more determined I am to try to feel better a normal way. If i feel this awful now I must have been seriously poisoning myself.
Anyway, hi everybody, I'm Medicatrix and I'll be posting here at least until I fall asleep. Which might be in like two hours
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Welcome!
Just try to remember, you can get through a few hours tonight without alcohol, and think how great you will feel in the morning. Take it minute by minute. Put some mind-numbing TV on, have SR at hand, and post away.
You can do this. And it will get easier and easier to pass up that drink.
Just try to remember, you can get through a few hours tonight without alcohol, and think how great you will feel in the morning. Take it minute by minute. Put some mind-numbing TV on, have SR at hand, and post away.
You can do this. And it will get easier and easier to pass up that drink.
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Originally Posted by medicatrix 
I'm exhausted and still stressed out. I am almost off work, and when I get done I'm going to go home.
Now here comes the hard part. I am in the habit of medicating my stress, exhaustion, frustration, confusion -- with a bottle of wine, especially -- ESPECIALLY on a Friday night. It would be so easy to just swing by the gorcery store, kick my shoes off, stretch out, putter around and open up that bottle.
It's the only way I know how to distance myself from the general beating I take all week. It's the only thing I've learned to do to feel better.
Now here comes the hard part. I am in the habit of medicating my stress, exhaustion, frustration, confusion -- with a bottle of wine, especially -- ESPECIALLY on a Friday night. It would be so easy to just swing by the gorcery store, kick my shoes off, stretch out, putter around and open up that bottle.
It's the only way I know how to distance myself from the general beating I take all week. It's the only thing I've learned to do to feel better.
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Fridays were a big deal for me too - for decades.
But I had one sober Friday...then another...then another...it got easier.
I no longer look at Friday as any different
You can do this medicatrix, you too TTBABP and anyone else reading
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But I had one sober Friday...then another...then another...it got easier.
I no longer look at Friday as any different
You can do this medicatrix, you too TTBABP and anyone else reading
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I also struggled a GREAT deal with the Friday night, end of week, reward myself with poison, I deserve this routine.
I stuck on SR like glue & with the encouragement of Dee & other SR people, I made it through 1, then 2 Fridays, etc. And it does get easier. After 2-3 months, Friday was like any other day.
Well done on a week sober!
I stuck on SR like glue & with the encouragement of Dee & other SR people, I made it through 1, then 2 Fridays, etc. And it does get easier. After 2-3 months, Friday was like any other day.
Well done on a week sober!
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Thanks PurpleCatLover!
I could really feel the thoughts trooping into my head the last hour of work.
. You know what it reminds me of? You know those old cinema advertisements for popcorn and hot dogs at the snack bar in a movie theatre? A tub of popcorn tapdancing and taking a bow, holding hands with a hot dog, sort of gliding across the screen. Enter...winebottle...doing a little softshoe across the back of my head, music...dum de diddly dum...
I could really feel the thoughts trooping into my head the last hour of work.
. You know what it reminds me of? You know those old cinema advertisements for popcorn and hot dogs at the snack bar in a movie theatre? A tub of popcorn tapdancing and taking a bow, holding hands with a hot dog, sort of gliding across the screen. Enter...winebottle...doing a little softshoe across the back of my head, music...dum de diddly dum...
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I have been having a conversation with myself .
(Drinking) is the only way I know how to distance myself from the general beating I take all week. It's the only thing I've learned to do to feel better.
When I stopped drinking, the beatings didn't stop, but my morale improved anyway. Pretty danged sure it will work that way for you too.
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Hey Medicatrix - looks like I just missed ya. I am here now comfy, too. Going to go make my third cup of tea shortly though. I hope you are still OK. If I don't catch you again tonight - please update tomorrow. Keep on keepin on
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Originally Posted by medicatrix
TTBABP, I'll be here. Go home, get comfy and start posting and I'll be right here too. Promise. Friday night, no alcohol. Sleep, hydrate, dream, heal. For me it's day seven tomorrow.
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. Hey there. I've got a caffeine free Diet Coke and I am watching Glee on Hulu. Not that exciting, but I am shredded and need to empty my brain. Gonna be a great day tomorrow. No hangover, not you and not me either.
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So much support this Friday night! Awesome this resource is here- I have read very encouraging words and I really appreciate everyone who shares. It helps me to feel so not alone and to read a lot of what I have lived...thanks!
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Originally Posted by TTBABP
Hey Medicatrix - looks like I just missed ya. I am here now comfy, too. Going to go make my third cup of tea shortly though. I hope you are still OK. If I don't catch you again tonight - please update tomorrow. Keep on keepin on
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it is day 1 for me my man and the 2 bottles of wine i had every night went down the drain 3 hours ago. You will get thru it. just like you i bet i am posting all night long. My poison helped me fall asleep. Feels like a long night but at got a good move and a bottle of tonic to sip on. You can do it
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Propped up in bed here, have my TV on, my coffee and Diet Rite Cola......and SR. Best thing I ever did was invest in a laptop - I lived on this site for days when I first got sober. It really helps give you some ammunition to fight those dancing wine bottles.....
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Medi - looks like we are just ships that pass in the night tonight. Glad you are enjoying a nice Diet Coke and Glee.
Delilah - thanks for the encouragement - much appreciated.
Well gotta go finish my laundry - ugh. Then off to sleep to wake up refreshed and well rested.
Medi- check you on the morrow!
Delilah - thanks for the encouragement - much appreciated.
Well gotta go finish my laundry - ugh. Then off to sleep to wake up refreshed and well rested.
Medi- check you on the morrow!
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