Its all my fault!
Its all my fault!
Since I've been sober this time, I've been realizing everytime something happens, my first thought is what did I do wrong? How is this my fault? Where do I fit in? I now see how selfish/immature these thoughts are: not everything is about me, or a personal insult of my actions. I can read posts, or speak to a person and not become instantly offended before I know the facts, take a step back, a deep breath and realize it's not all about me. There is a whole big world and I am part of it, I'm only the center of my own universe, (responsible for my actions and reactions). Saves a whole lot of hurt feelings. I hope this will pave the way for my continued sobriety in the future. Just saying....I'm learning to take it easy about life in general. The alternative, is relapse, which is unacceptable.
I found that too bloss....I think I had a rather indistinct sense of self when I was drinking so what happened around me I took on?
With a stronger sense of who I am, that happened less and less
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With a stronger sense of who I am, that happened less and less
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I remember asking someone to be a sponsor and being crushed when he said he was sponsoring 4 people and could not handle anymore. I thought to myself, "How could he say no? I am so deserving, I am working hard, what is wrong with me?" As I started to work with others and work the steps the world opened up a lot. Still the world is all about me just ask me Progress not perfection
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