Difficult day...
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Difficult day...
7 weeks sober and today was the first day that i REALLY wanted to drink..
1st trigger) stressful day of holiday shopping, dealing with rude customer service and other shoppers, traffic, Fedex damaged a package, delivery guy tracked mud on my white carpet, etc
2nd trigger) went into a liquor store for the first time since i stopped drinking just to grab a water. As soon as i walked in my attention immediately went to the rows and rows of liquor behind the counter..it was as if everything was in slo-mo as i walked by. my first instinct was to grab a 1/2 pint..then I snapped out of it, grabbed my water and left.
3rd trigger) friend has called me twice today seemingly taunting me about sobriety.."come on lets go to the bar...what are you gonna do now? Spend your time at the library?....theres a kegger down the street, i'll pick you up". I told him that these type of comments, even if meant lightly, were not welcome. He said okay "BUDDY" and hung up and now I FEEL BAD..like i did something wrong.
Arrrggg!! Happy place happy place happy place.
Needed to vent.
1st trigger) stressful day of holiday shopping, dealing with rude customer service and other shoppers, traffic, Fedex damaged a package, delivery guy tracked mud on my white carpet, etc
2nd trigger) went into a liquor store for the first time since i stopped drinking just to grab a water. As soon as i walked in my attention immediately went to the rows and rows of liquor behind the counter..it was as if everything was in slo-mo as i walked by. my first instinct was to grab a 1/2 pint..then I snapped out of it, grabbed my water and left.
3rd trigger) friend has called me twice today seemingly taunting me about sobriety.."come on lets go to the bar...what are you gonna do now? Spend your time at the library?....theres a kegger down the street, i'll pick you up". I told him that these type of comments, even if meant lightly, were not welcome. He said okay "BUDDY" and hung up and now I FEEL BAD..like i did something wrong.
Arrrggg!! Happy place happy place happy place.
Needed to vent.
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Wow, I've had the stress filled days and have been around people drinking and where they sell booze, but I have yet to have a friend taunt me like that.
Seven weeks is awesome, I would hope your friend would show you more respect.
You should not feel bad, you did nothing wrong.
Seven weeks is awesome, I would hope your friend would show you more respect.
You should not feel bad, you did nothing wrong.
glad you were strong enough to buy water, and avoid the taunting of your friend.Member
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Originally Posted by Halzuzu 
7 weeks sober and today was the first day that i REALLY wanted to drink..
1st trigger) stressful day of holiday shopping, dealing with rude customer service and other shoppers, traffic, Fedex damaged a package, delivery guy tracked mud on my white carpet, etc
2nd trigger) went into a liquor store for the first time since i stopped drinking just to grab a water. As soon as i walked in my attention immediately went to the rows and rows of liquor behind the counter..it was as if everything was in slo-mo as i walked by. my first instinct was to grab a 1/2 pint..then I snapped out of it, grabbed my water and left.
3rd trigger) friend has called me twice today seemingly taunting me about sobriety.."come on lets go to the bar...what are you gonna do now? Spend your time at the library?....theres a kegger down the street, i'll pick you up". I told him that these type of comments, even if meant lightly, were not welcome. He said okay "BUDDY" and hung up and now I FEEL BAD..like i did something wrong.
Arrrggg!! Happy place happy place happy place.
Needed to vent.
1st trigger) stressful day of holiday shopping, dealing with rude customer service and other shoppers, traffic, Fedex damaged a package, delivery guy tracked mud on my white carpet, etc
2nd trigger) went into a liquor store for the first time since i stopped drinking just to grab a water. As soon as i walked in my attention immediately went to the rows and rows of liquor behind the counter..it was as if everything was in slo-mo as i walked by. my first instinct was to grab a 1/2 pint..then I snapped out of it, grabbed my water and left.
3rd trigger) friend has called me twice today seemingly taunting me about sobriety.."come on lets go to the bar...what are you gonna do now? Spend your time at the library?....theres a kegger down the street, i'll pick you up". I told him that these type of comments, even if meant lightly, were not welcome. He said okay "BUDDY" and hung up and now I FEEL BAD..like i did something wrong.
Arrrggg!! Happy place happy place happy place.
Needed to vent.
Just saw your post.....yep, this time of year gets really stressful, and for those of us in recovery, it can really be frightening!!! Triggers one and two, I get that, so I choose the serenity prayer...over and over in my head....through the traffic, past the nasty cs people who seriously have no cs skills...but the third one, your friend.....hmm.
You did NOTHING wrong.....you should be awesomely proud of yourself...I am proud of you!!!! It was really brave of you to be up front with your friend....you need to look after yourself, first.....and you were diplomatic....so it's one of those cases of their stuff not mine, I think...but we're sensitive, and it hurts. So I offer you my love and support....and say well done you!!! xxx
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I'm stunned by the insensitivity of your 'friend'. I wonder if he has a stake in getting you to relapse? Possibly reflecting on his own drinking habits?
Well done on avoiding the traps and ambushes today. I find the unexpected is more dangerous than events where I have armed myself in advance.
Brilliant work, you are an inspiration.
Well done on avoiding the traps and ambushes today. I find the unexpected is more dangerous than events where I have armed myself in advance.
Brilliant work, you are an inspiration.
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Great going - 7 weeks is amazing
You have nothing to apologise to your friend for - suspect he has his own demons lurking
As for fed ex - if everyone drank when they smashed something up the world would be a real mess and there would be a world wide shortage of alcohol !!!
You have nothing to apologise to your friend for - suspect he has his own demons lurking
As for fed ex - if everyone drank when they smashed something up the world would be a real mess and there would be a world wide shortage of alcohol !!!
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