Kindeyes

I knew last summer when my sons's car was impounded that this winter would be pivotal. He lost his shelter and currency. He has been homeless for the last few years but the car gave him shelter when a couch wasn't available. It was his currency with drug dealers as he could "run" the drugs.....essentially a courier. Without a car, he had no shelter and no value to those who could provide him with money or temporary housing. He became truly homeless.

It rains a lot here. It's cold rain. Calls of "I have no socks, my feet are freezing". "I'm cold.....I'm going to die." My reply.....there is a men's shelter, you'll be given a bed and food there. Stepping into the mistakes of enabling a couple of times and correcting my behaviors. There was plenty of drama over the last few weeks.......I spent hours praying, reading literature, talking to my sponsor, and trying (and sometimes failing miserably) to work my program.

To make a long story short, I dropped him off at the Salvation Army ARC yesterday. It's a six month program (up to a year) for the rehabilitation of those who have run out of options, are addicted, and ready for help. I have no idea whether he will complete the program. It is out of my control. But today I am grateful. Grateful for the lessons I have learned through working (and sometimes NOT working) my program.

Thanks for letting me share.

gentle hugs
ke

suki44883

((((hugs))))

MsPINKAcres

sending out lots of pink hugs & mom prayers for you and your precious son!

LoveMeNow

Welcome back Kindeyes, You have been missed.

I have been praying for you as I wondered if you were ok. (codie friends have their use

I will continue to pray for your son and you. You truly walked the walk, got out of Gods way and let's just pray your son is sick and tired of being sick and tired.

lauren

Kindeyes..it is the most draining time when we know the right thing
to do and do it as you have. If he embraces recovery it surely is a
bonus and I have to say you did that which takes some of us a very
long time to do.

Recently my husband has taken all options of home away from our son
as he has gone far and beyond just the addiction. I always thought I
was the stronger parent, it appears I wasn't and it is tearing me up inside.
I will honor my hubbys decision as after reflection it was also the right
move.

Peace and thoughts of comfort going your way.

lauren

cece1960

Continued prayers for you and your entire family (((Kindeyes)))

Kindeyes

Thanks LMN......good to be back.

I haven't always walked the walk perfectly. God has a way of giving us opportunities to "do it better" by placing new challenges in front of us. I think He does it until we learn the lesson we need to.

gentle hugs
ke

LoveMeNow

I don't think there is a mother here that can walk perfectly - nor will there ever be.

Progress not perfection!

sojourner

Kindeyes!!! Lots and lots of hugs coming your way!!!

Sojourner

chicory

You have been in my thoughts (((Kindeyes))) and you are both in my prayers.

good to have a positive update. one day at a time,
loving hugs,
chicory

JMFburns

So good to see your post, hear of your update and feel the struggle you are going through. Your heartfelt posts are inspiring for me, thank you.

We all struggle and do the best we can.

tjp613

Praying for you both, KE. I hope this is "It". (((Hugs)))

whaty

At least you know he is warm so that must give you some comfort. I am going through similar with my AS right now and like all of us Moms, I feel for you.

Whaty

Ilovemysonjj

Hello KE! So glad to hear /see you here again. I will pray along your side that your son has the opportunity to regain his life.
Hugs,
Teresa

lightseeker

boy - is that sharing some experience, strength, and hope. I've missed you and you have been in my thoughts. I love those 6 month - 1 year programs and glad that he has ended up there.

I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.

Anaya

Thanks for sharing, KE. I'm glad to hear you're hanging in there. I'll also pray for you and your son.

GardenMama

Kindeyes, I have been wondering about your absence. My thoughts and prayers are with you and you son. I hope he stays, I hope it works, but most of all, I hope you get some peace and rest. Your growth is an inspiration and keeps me centered and on task. Thank you for sharing this with us.

Ann

(((Kindeyes))) I know how heartbreaking it is to watch our sons self-destruct, so please don't be hard on yourself if the journey has been difficult.

Your boy is in my prayers, that his hardship will be a strangely wrapped gift, as God's gifts often are, and that it will lead him to a better path ahead.

It's so good to see you again, you have been missed indeed. I hope you know how much we all care and are walking with you on this journey.

Hugs

Sunshine2

Kindeyes, I pray for your son. I pray that he will find the desire deep within him to really clean up. I pray that this is the start of his recovery that will lead to him having a good life. I am grateful that he has come to this point and that for today all is well.

Kindeyes

Thank you all for your kind comments and prayers.
I love you all.
gentle hugs
ke