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hi there,
I went to sleep about an hour ago, or an hour and a half ago, and got up again. Insomnia, maybe?
Just had the strongest urge to drink. Was dreaming, well you go through Thanksgiving, now no one else will be around, so just go and have a drink. That voice was so strong !!!!
Even though bars are still opened for another 45 minutes, I won't do that. I have nothing in the house, which is good !!!! I guess I just didn't think 12 days ago that I was quitting so that I could make a good impression for the holi-daze. Maybe I was??
But I didn't want to, I wanted to quit drinking for good this time. Please help me make that AV go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to sleep about an hour ago, or an hour and a half ago, and got up again. Insomnia, maybe?
Just had the strongest urge to drink. Was dreaming, well you go through Thanksgiving, now no one else will be around, so just go and have a drink. That voice was so strong !!!!
Even though bars are still opened for another 45 minutes, I won't do that. I have nothing in the house, which is good !!!! I guess I just didn't think 12 days ago that I was quitting so that I could make a good impression for the holi-daze. Maybe I was??
But I didn't want to, I wanted to quit drinking for good this time. Please help me make that AV go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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You can do it Amy.
It's ok to feel the feelings - we know how to make better choices and better decisions now. You made one by logging on here.
We don't have to give in anymore.
Think about how good you'll feel tomorrow morning
you'll be fine - I know it
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It's ok to feel the feelings - we know how to make better choices and better decisions now. You made one by logging on here.
We don't have to give in anymore.
Think about how good you'll feel tomorrow morning
you'll be fine - I know it
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I know, but never in my life had a feeling like this. It scared me.
I felt like I was even lying to myself.
Glad I made my son take the rest of that case of beer with him. I'm not strong right now, if it was here I would have drank it. And that's scary. I never got up in the middle of the night to get drunk, but I would have. If it was here.
I felt like I was even lying to myself.
Glad I made my son take the rest of that case of beer with him. I'm not strong right now, if it was here I would have drank it. And that's scary. I never got up in the middle of the night to get drunk, but I would have. If it was here.
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However strong the feeling, I found I was stronger, Amy.
Maybe try some urge surfing if you haven't already? it really worked for me.
kinda calms you down too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
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Maybe try some urge surfing if you haven't already? it really worked for me.
kinda calms you down too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
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The night before dawn is the darkest.
As a chronic insomnia sufferer, I have learned that I cannot trust the thoughts that arrive in the middle of the night.
Don't listen to them.
Tomorrow is a new day x
As a chronic insomnia sufferer, I have learned that I cannot trust the thoughts that arrive in the middle of the night.
Don't listen to them.
Tomorrow is a new day x
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I understand that - I remember that feeling too.
No need to be afraid tho - your addictive self is teeny weeny for all its big voice...it needs you to agree - it needs your legs to go to the shop, your hands to grab the bottle.
without you it's impotent. So say...no
you can handle this
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No need to be afraid tho - your addictive self is teeny weeny for all its big voice...it needs you to agree - it needs your legs to go to the shop, your hands to grab the bottle.
without you it's impotent. So say...no
you can handle this
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
I understand that - I remember that feeling too.
No need to be afraid tho - your addictive self is teeny weeny for all its big voice...it needs you to agree - it needs your legs to go to the shop, your hands to grab the bottle.
without you it's impotent. So say...no
you can handle this
D
No need to be afraid tho - your addictive self is teeny weeny for all its big voice...it needs you to agree - it needs your legs to go to the shop, your hands to grab the bottle.
without you it's impotent. So say...no
you can handle this
D
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