I just realized...
I just realized...
I just realized that I am sitting cross-legged on my bed, with my back leaning against some pillows, computer on my lap, with a giant bottle either firmly clasped in my left hand or resting in the nook of my arm as I type. That bottle used to always be booze. This time it's mineral water.
I am still enacting a nightly ritual to the tee, just with fizzy water instead of the booze. It's funny how I still find the physical presence of the bottle comforting even though it's not filled with what my addiction craves.
You think I would grow up and get a glass with some ice, but for now I like that fizzy mineral water bottle right where it is.
I am still enacting a nightly ritual to the tee, just with fizzy water instead of the booze. It's funny how I still find the physical presence of the bottle comforting even though it's not filled with what my addiction craves.
You think I would grow up and get a glass with some ice, but for now I like that fizzy mineral water bottle right where it is.
I think having the bottle and the ritual the same, but the drink different (and non-alcoholic) is nice because it reminds exactly of what I am NOT doing right now, which is ruining my life
I now have ice water, I have become a big fan of fat free hot chocolate or low fat chocolate silk. Figure the calcium is good for my almost 42 year old bones!!!
I love coke zero and have made the mistake of drinking it at night, not wise when falling asleep is already an issue for me!
I love coke zero and have made the mistake of drinking it at night, not wise when falling asleep is already an issue for me!
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When I stopped smoking..i would hold cinnamon sticks in my hand and sometimes pretend to puff on them..it helped me alot. I never returned to smoking. Holding a bottle of water is great and it if helps or soothes you..do it ..whatever works
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