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First post!
I'm really glad that I found this community. Just a few words to introduce myself:
I'm an alcoholic. I used to do all kinds of drugs too, but I just can't seem to kick my addiction to alcohol. I feel like a failure. It's not the first time that I'm on Day 1. I managed to quit for over six months and then I had a half-glass of wine, thinking I could handle it, thinking I was able to control it now. Of course "moderation" didn't last very long and I picked up right where I left off.
It's hell. The worst feeling wasn't even the guilt of the next morning. It was the guilt right before I started drinking, because there was no denial, I was fully conscious of what I was about to do to myself. There came a point where I was drinking to forget that I was an alcoholic. I just didn't want to deal with it.
This morning I woke up at 4:30 with a horrible headache. I couldn't fall back asleep. I still feel sick. But hopeful. In a way I'm glad I feel so sick, because it's the wake-up call I needed to quit drinking today.
I'm not too familiar with the site yet, so I know what I'm doing tonight instead of drinking.
I'm an alcoholic. I used to do all kinds of drugs too, but I just can't seem to kick my addiction to alcohol. I feel like a failure. It's not the first time that I'm on Day 1. I managed to quit for over six months and then I had a half-glass of wine, thinking I could handle it, thinking I was able to control it now. Of course "moderation" didn't last very long and I picked up right where I left off.
It's hell. The worst feeling wasn't even the guilt of the next morning. It was the guilt right before I started drinking, because there was no denial, I was fully conscious of what I was about to do to myself. There came a point where I was drinking to forget that I was an alcoholic. I just didn't want to deal with it.
This morning I woke up at 4:30 with a horrible headache. I couldn't fall back asleep. I still feel sick. But hopeful. In a way I'm glad I feel so sick, because it's the wake-up call I needed to quit drinking today.
I'm not too familiar with the site yet, so I know what I'm doing tonight instead of drinking.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
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Welcome to SR! I have ad many day ones as well, and wine was always the cause of it! I think your plan for hanging around on this site is a good one.
Looking forward to seeing you in here, and learning more about you!
Looking forward to seeing you in here, and learning more about you!
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