Susan80

I have been positive all week and as I feared it is Friday afternoon and my workmates are planning a night out on the town. I have had a crap day at work and would like nothing more than to drink and smoke the night away with my friends. I had arranged to go to a spinning class but at the moment the urge to go out and party is soooo strong. . . I feel so weak. :-(

Windancer

Good thing you are posting here instead of acting on impulse. Stay strong! You will only regret it if you drink or smoke. You CAN do it .

Natom

Work situations are hard. Fake an illness perhaps. Or have something major pop up. Thats what I used to do in the early days. When you get an urge to drink sit down for 5 mins with a glass of water and think of all the bad consequences that have happened as a result of your using.

Natom.

Susan80

Like it wasn't bad enough, my boyfriend has just called (he is on a trip away) and is drunk!! Arrrgggghhhh!!! I will go to the class, tire myself out so all I will want to do is chill out. :-)

doggonecarl

Crap days at work, your work mates twisting your arm to go out and drink, real easy to "blame" them for your slip if you drink.

These are the things you have to fight through in early recovery. It's not easy, and the fervor to quit that we had a few days before starts to fade. Your addiction knows you are weakening.

I suggest you re-read your initial post. You cannot control your drinking. Tonight is likely to be no exception if you drink. Why lose the progress you've made.

Have you given thought to face to face support? Have you looked into other recovery methods?

Stay strong.

kittycat00

Stay strong! Maybe come on here and chat after your spin class to help distract you

Susan80

No I haven't looked into any other recovery methods. . . I don't know if I need AA or I can do this with online support. I think I will chat online later. . . good ida! Thanks to all.

Windancer

I second that Kittycat

kristabell

stay strong love, remember how it feels the "next day" and how much you want to be sober and move on with your life. treat yourself good do something special for yourself.

Anna

I'm glad you're working on staying sober.

I think that if you're boyfriend and your friends are all drinkers, you might need to some space in order to begin to recover. I couldn't have been around people who were drinking in the early days.

Delilah1

Good for you for choosing spin class! You will feel better later on and will wake up feeling good as well. I have relied mainly on this site to help me stay sober but I am seeing a therapist, completed an education class through my insurance and have gone to a few meetings.

Check out Anna's thread with books to read during recovery, some really good ones there and will help pass the time.

IndaMiricale

Good deal.. You dont need to pick. Its only a mask of tempory relief and escape.


Think thru till tomorrow waking hungover , regret , ect.. You can do it..

Dee74

Hope you had a good night Susan

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ClearLight

For me - sometimes it seems like I have to drag my body over to the right place to be. For you it seems like it would be the spinning class.

Sasha4

Play the tape all the way through...

Think of being out in the cold - and it is freezing in the UK.

Think of home time, will you be cold and slurry drunk, even have blacked out? Will you be safe?

Think of tomorrow...

Will you wake up anxiety ridden?
Will you have that raging thirst and eat junk all day?
Will you spend the day with your head down the toilet?

What do you want to achieve this weekend? Christmas shopping, seeing friends, cleaning?

Will you get that done if you go out tonight?

Think forward to monday...
Will people in the office be gossiping about you?
Will you be worrying about what you did, what you said?

I can completely agree that giving it some welly on a spin bike will dissolve your anger better than an evening of booze!

And how good will you feel when you see your boyfriend and you can say you did not drink?!