Weird feeling..
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Weird feeling..
I don't know if I am the only one that feels this way sometimes , but let me explain. My mom was addicted to prescription drugs for a short period of time , but it was still very hard to go through. Sometimes I will think it about it and it will just hit me that it all happened and all the feelings I felt while it happened will all come back to me. Even after she is a year sober , it still hits me sometimes. Am I the only one ? Maybe it's just weird.
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Well done on your mam being sober a year.
Nah not weird maybe you could talk it through with someone or go to al anon meeting, a place where friends / family of addicts/alcoholics meet
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Nah not weird maybe you could talk it through with someone or go to al anon meeting, a place where friends / family of addicts/alcoholics meet
Welcome to SR. Please keep posting n read the stickies
Evey xxxx
Hello Piglet,
I have those experiences sometimes, too, when I think about a very unstable time in my life when I couldn't count on anything being the same one day to the next and I was in great pain on the inside but trying to look fine on the outside.
For myself, I think I buried a lot of natural feelings rather than expressed them, and from time to time, I think those repressed feelings sweep through my mind and my body when something in the outer world triggers me. But I never know what might be the trigger. It could be someone's face on television, or a billboard, anything that seems unconnected but somehow brings up the buried stress.
It is not PTSD exactly, but I do think it is a form of anxiety which the mind brings up and the body reacts to. The body's autonomic reaction--the feeling of stress--is not within our control, and we just simply suddenly feel overwhelmed by memory and fight-or-flight responses. One of my symptoms, strangely, would be my blood running cold, out to the ends of my fingers and toes and all through me. All at once. My health was fine. But my body was reacting to a shock in my mind, a shock related to the addict who had caused me great turmoil.
Some people have racing heart, sweaty palms, dizziness, nausea. But I think many of us here do understand what you mean, about the lingering effects of all that emotional disturbance inside us.
Sometimes I get a pen and paper and I take the time to write down the feeling and trace it back to where it comes from and then I write down why I am not at the mercy of anyone's addiction and how I can make myself feel safe.
I'm glad your mother found sobriety. But no matter her path, yours is entirely separate, you are separate, and your life will always belong to you. Her addiction (she will always be an addict, recovering or otherwise) does not and will never define you. You have your own path and mission to fulfill, and I hope you will feel free to live the happiest life you can make.
I have those experiences sometimes, too, when I think about a very unstable time in my life when I couldn't count on anything being the same one day to the next and I was in great pain on the inside but trying to look fine on the outside.
For myself, I think I buried a lot of natural feelings rather than expressed them, and from time to time, I think those repressed feelings sweep through my mind and my body when something in the outer world triggers me. But I never know what might be the trigger. It could be someone's face on television, or a billboard, anything that seems unconnected but somehow brings up the buried stress.
It is not PTSD exactly, but I do think it is a form of anxiety which the mind brings up and the body reacts to. The body's autonomic reaction--the feeling of stress--is not within our control, and we just simply suddenly feel overwhelmed by memory and fight-or-flight responses. One of my symptoms, strangely, would be my blood running cold, out to the ends of my fingers and toes and all through me. All at once. My health was fine. But my body was reacting to a shock in my mind, a shock related to the addict who had caused me great turmoil.
Some people have racing heart, sweaty palms, dizziness, nausea. But I think many of us here do understand what you mean, about the lingering effects of all that emotional disturbance inside us.
Sometimes I get a pen and paper and I take the time to write down the feeling and trace it back to where it comes from and then I write down why I am not at the mercy of anyone's addiction and how I can make myself feel safe.
I'm glad your mother found sobriety. But no matter her path, yours is entirely separate, you are separate, and your life will always belong to you. Her addiction (she will always be an addict, recovering or otherwise) does not and will never define you. You have your own path and mission to fulfill, and I hope you will feel free to live the happiest life you can make.
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Thank you so much for the replies ! I think it's important for me to remember my recovery is different from everyone else. Maybe they just don't show it , but everyone in my family seems to be okay with everything. We never bring it up , at least not very often. I think I need to remind myself that for me it might take longer. I think I feel it's weird just because no one else around me seems to have problems with it anymore , and it still bothers me sometimes.Thanks for listening !
Piglet, I am sorry you are still hurting about your mother's addiction. Do you have anyone to talk to, perhaps a counselor? Maybe you could talk to your mother about therapy for you.
I know it hard to understand this but her addiction has nothing to do with how much she loves you. Prescription drugs addiction has become a sad epidemic in our country. Tonight at 8:00 EST on CNN, there is a documentary about it, if you are interested in watching it.
ETA: Your mom's addiction can serve as learning experience for you as well. Please know that children of an addict have a 50% chance of becoming one or marrying one. Work on you, so you don't fall into any unhealthy or dangerous situations.
I know it hard to understand this but her addiction has nothing to do with how much she loves you. Prescription drugs addiction has become a sad epidemic in our country. Tonight at 8:00 EST on CNN, there is a documentary about it, if you are interested in watching it.
ETA: Your mom's addiction can serve as learning experience for you as well. Please know that children of an addict have a 50% chance of becoming one or marrying one. Work on you, so you don't fall into any unhealthy or dangerous situations.
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