amy55

Hi, my name is Ann Marie, and I am an alcoholic.

I posted a long winded drunk thread 2 days ago, and I thought it would be better to start a new one.

I was sober last year from 8/2/2011 till 7/14/2012. Guess sort of had a breakdown. But I am back because the best days that I had in my life were the days that I was sober.

So please help me, I know you can't help me, need to do that for myself, just asking for support

Dee74

it's good to have you back amy

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amy55

Also forgot to say, this is day 1, it's almost over, but it is over, because I will not drive tonight to get anything

iseult

I am glad you're here. I know for me I wouldn't be coping right now if it weren't for the amazing people here.

Im looking forward to hearing more about you returning to happier sober days!

Elisabeth888

Hi Amy! I am glad you are here too.

Hevyn

Hi again Ann Marie. Glad you are making progress - it gets a little easier every day.

Delilah1

Welcome back Ann Marie,

The nice thing is day one is over. Think back to what helped you be successful being sober for almost a year.

Looking forward to seeing you on here.

amy55

I'm actually doing pretty good. I let that thing that happened in July really get to me. But you know what, I want to live in the present again. Can't go back to the past. Worry about tonight with the sweats, and insomnia, but, oh well, can do that for a week or so.

nogard

You can post and talk here too. Thats what was so great for me when I got clean, I lived in a remote area and I could not sleep but I could jump on here and talk and I did, boy did I!

sissy07

Welcome back Amy!

amy55

Talking is kinda hard for me, because people tell me to leave the past behind and to focus on me, but yet I feel that the past had a lot to do with what I am doing, and I am not trying to be blaming. I was a self-medicator. I just wanted to be numb

I wasn't allowed to talk when I was married, so please don't encourage that, I have too much built up inside of me that wants to come out, but it will seem like blaming another person.

Maybe leave it as, I was in a very abusive relationship


Thanks for the welcome

amy55

nothing against you or anything, but this did trigger me, and that is stupid, I was not allowed to talk when I was married. I have PTSD, panic attacks, and anxiety due to how I reacted to my marriage.

No one put the "can in my hand" except for me.

Still really rough for me to open up, I try to, I do it a little at a time in the post responses that I make.

I did a lot of this in therapy, but I do not, and don't want to blame someone else other than me for where I am right now.

amy55

watching the best movie ever, "OFFICE SPACE" while they are beating up the photo copy machine. How many times I wanted to do that !!!!!!!!!!!!!

or was that the printer? anyway, really good part of the movie

Positivefuture

Welcome back! Good to see you here. You have my support!

amy55

can I really talk here?

I felt really good in MIRecovery thread tonight, but can I really talk here?

I also belong to the family and friends of alcoholics, and sometimes I feel like I can speak there about what I went through, but not here.

No, no one said anything to me, but I feel like I just need to focus on me and recovery, instead of why I did what I did. Which would be focusing on another, or many

4kidsdad

Amy,
I quit drinking on Tuesday. It's Thursday already. 2 days have gone by fast. Your time will go by before you know it. Enjoy the journey, the compassion, the posts and all the reading. Get well and hope to hear how awesome your life is about to become...

amy55

For you also.

Isn't this the greatest site

amy55

I need to apologize to nogard

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You can post and talk here too. Thats what was so great for me when I got clean, I lived in a remote area and I could not sleep but I could jump on here and talk and I did, boy did I!
nothing against you or anything, but this did trigger me, and that is stupid, I was not allowed to talk when I was married. I have PTSD, panic attacks, and anxiety due to how I reacted to my marriage.

No one put the "can in my hand" except for me.

Still really rough for me to open up, I try to, I do it a little at a time in the post responses that I make.

I did a lot of this in therapy, but I do not, and don't want to blame someone else other than me for where I am right now.



I jumped before I thought. Really sorry