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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Fort Wayne, IN
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Back again
Hey everyone, for those that don't know me my name is Brian and I am an alcoholic. I don't know where to begin. I first found this site after a 2nd DUI with the first one being 10 years prior. I found soberiety after a 3rd DUI with the second one being 3 months prior. Sad I know, but where the big book says "off to the races" when it comes to alcohol and me its beyond the Indy 500, it's a back road demolition derby. I am posting here because in the last 6 months I have relapsed several times and now I feel it is time to retake step one. From my experience to anyone reading this, if you are here and had issues with alcohol and now feel you can drink normally, take my word you can't. Yesterday I was with my child. She went down for her afternoon nap about 130. Now I am staying at a hotel waiting to see my child again. Tbh my wife isn't very nice and I have used this as a way to justify my drinking. The fact is I was drinking long before I met her so whole she might be a trigger she's not the cause. Anyway I posted this because I am ready to give recovery another go. I feel that in order for this to work I need to be alone. Only in the fellowship of other alcoholics. Thank you.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: London
Posts: 539
Thanks for the post. The great obbession of us alcoholics that 1 day we can drink normally, this thought has to be smashed. i used to think my faince was a trigger my dog my cat infact just breathing was a trigger the truth is i drunk because iam an alcoholic and thats what i do!!
why would you want to be alone away from your family and only in the company of alcoholics?? surely sobriety is ment to bring you closer to your family friends not islolate you, because lets face it alcohol has been doing that!!
Good luck on your journey! you will find some great people on this site!
why would you want to be alone away from your family and only in the company of alcoholics?? surely sobriety is ment to bring you closer to your family friends not islolate you, because lets face it alcohol has been doing that!!
Good luck on your journey! you will find some great people on this site!
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern Ontario, Canada
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I just got my second DUI a couple monthes ago. The second in less than two years. Court is coming up and I am terrified, but also Im slightly amazed at how Im getting proactive in turning my life around. I am thankful no one got hurt because of my drinking and driving....
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: Wisconsin
Posts: 339
I got 2 DUI's in 2 months so I can relate. Many things are up in the air in my life but one thing is not. I will not drink. Do not isolate yourself as much as your mind is telling you too. It is your disease talking and it wants to kill you. Get around people that are supportive and face what ever they have to say to you.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Posts: 603
After my 3rd DUI in 25 years, I have resolved that I will never drink and drive again. I got away with it thousands of times. Thank God no one ever got hurt. My guardian angel must be watching over me to assure that I can experience more of this earthly trip. But, no, I don't really believe such nonsense.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
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Thank you! I literally almost cried reading the posts! I thought I would get a lot of crap over the relapses. Come to find out this really is a community of supportive ppl that have been through this crap. Thank you all!
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
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Welcome back Bri!
I originally signed up for SR under a different username and password in June of 2011, that time I made it 16 days and didnt get back on until this March, for all of one day, and in September again one day.
The night of October 11th and decided I am done. I work full time and have three amazing kids and I need to be fully present at work and at home. I am on Day 32 today and have been on SR every day. I also went to education classes through my insurance, and I am working with a counselor. For the outside I appeared to be a successful working mother, however, on the inside I was a mess.
I have found the people on this site to be amazing. Keep reading and posting, and stick with the one day at a time attitude. Sending hugs and positive thoughts.
I originally signed up for SR under a different username and password in June of 2011, that time I made it 16 days and didnt get back on until this March, for all of one day, and in September again one day.
The night of October 11th and decided I am done. I work full time and have three amazing kids and I need to be fully present at work and at home. I am on Day 32 today and have been on SR every day. I also went to education classes through my insurance, and I am working with a counselor. For the outside I appeared to be a successful working mother, however, on the inside I was a mess.
I have found the people on this site to be amazing. Keep reading and posting, and stick with the one day at a time attitude. Sending hugs and positive thoughts.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Posts: 162
Originally Posted by heath480 
Welcome back brian.
No drink driving offences for me,only because I was never caught.
Wishing you well.
No drink driving offences for me,only because I was never caught.
Wishing you well.
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