Hope

Today is so hard. I'm going into a treatment center and when I get out, I have to find another place to live. I need to live in a sober environment. It is SO hard to stay sober when I'm surrounded by other people who are getting drunk or high.

My mom and uncle always drink in front of me and they don't respect my desire to be sober.

And, my mom has started smoking spice every day and that makes me so ANGRY. Grrr... I hate seeing my mom messed up EVERY DAY. I want my mom to get sober too.

Seeing every body around here get messed up is making me feel like drinking. It's such a hard struggle.

Also, this girl who lives down the street always asks me to ride with her every day because she only has a permit. But, every day she is either wanting alcohol or spice.

This road that I'm staying on is a party street. Not a sober place and such a horrible place for a person wanting to recover.

Just needed to vent.

I just don't want to go back to drinking anymore. My health is truly suffering. I used to drink every day and it's so weird to not be drinking.

Cleopatra1

hey hope,, you vent hun,, i will be sooner or later! well done on day 2,, thatll be me tomorrow,, xx
feel sorry for you having peeps around you like that, when u really dont need it , but it can only make u stronger hun xx keep venting,, im here!!
lv cleo xxx

Hope

Thanks Cleo (((hugs))) I'm here for you too!!

Anna

Hope, I'm sorry you're living in such a difficult situation. I hope that there is an opportunity for you to live in a sober house or somewhere safe when you get out of treatment. Good for you for taking care of yourself.

MidnightBlue

Hope, I am sorry you are going through all this.

It takes a lot beat deep-rooted habits and addiction and change the life. But you are fighting for your life now, for your health and future. So, stick to your decision.

I wish you luck and courage.

Cleopatra1

hope , i wish you good luck in the centre,, i really feel for you, am soz u in a situation like that,, it will help to come here as much as u can,,,
my prayers are with u hunny,, stay strong and remember we are herexxx
lv cleo xxx

Hope

Thanks to everyone for the kind words. I truly appreciate the support.