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I'm reading Rational Recovery and just starting out. I have yet to say I will never drink again, but I'm able to say I don't drink. I have lot's of contradictions going on in my head just saying that. Right now my husband is not drinking right along with me, but he doesn't admit that a beer will lead to a bottle. It's the panic involved. If you admit that, it means you can never drink again.
I'm just happy he's not drinking at this point. I think I have stronger will power to avoid that first drink, but I know black and white after the first, there are many more to follow. I'm still feeling last weekend's cliff jump and happy my mind is clear enough to say I want change.
This seemed to be where the "alternative folk" meet, so I thought I'd introduce myself. I don't really feel like I have all sorts of bad character flaws to correct or think I have a disease. I think drinking makes me want to drink more and makes me sick and make bad choices. I'd love to drink socially, I used to, but find I can't anymore. That's all I know for now.
I'm just happy he's not drinking at this point. I think I have stronger will power to avoid that first drink, but I know black and white after the first, there are many more to follow. I'm still feeling last weekend's cliff jump and happy my mind is clear enough to say I want change.
This seemed to be where the "alternative folk" meet, so I thought I'd introduce myself. I don't really feel like I have all sorts of bad character flaws to correct or think I have a disease. I think drinking makes me want to drink more and makes me sick and make bad choices. I'd love to drink socially, I used to, but find I can't anymore. That's all I know for now.
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Hello evilk..I don't view myself as "alternative" lol. I too don't think I have a disease especially now that I don't drink. My drinking caused so much havoc in my life I needed to stop doing it. Not a loss at all. Welcome
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So I just read your post, Fitz. I hope you're not thinking because I called myself alternative and my screen name is evilk, that I'm into devil worshiping or something and I don't sacrifice animals. I actually don't believe a devil exists, but my name came from what some old card playing friends used to call me for being competitive to a fault. I don't fit in any religion, but do subscribe to a lot of the Buddhists way of thinking. At least the positive part of me does. It's hard to explain. I'm a bit lost right now.
Nobshere~The alternative is more because AA is the accepted norm and it does not fit me. I see it as a dependency circle and I just don't need more of that. I know it works for some. It's just not my cup of joe.
Nobshere~The alternative is more because AA is the accepted norm and it does not fit me. I see it as a dependency circle and I just don't need more of that. I know it works for some. It's just not my cup of joe.
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Originally Posted by evilk 
I don't really feel like I have all sorts of bad character flaws to correct or think I have a disease. I think drinking makes me want to drink more and makes me sick and make bad choices. I'd love to drink socially, I used to, but find I can't anymore. That's all I know for now.
You are most welcome here, there is a lot of support for you on this forum. Please keep posting, OK? Best to you.
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Originally Posted by evilk
So I just read your post, Fitz. I hope you're not thinking because I called myself alternative and my screen name is evilk, that I'm into devil worshiping or something and I don't sacrifice animals. I actually don't believe a devil exists, but my name came from what some old card playing friends used to call me for being competitive to a fault. I don't fit in any religion, but do subscribe to a lot of the Buddhists way of thinking. At least the positive part of me does. It's hard to explain. I'm a bit lost right now.
Nobshere~The alternative is more because AA is the accepted norm and it does not fit me. I see it as a dependency circle and I just don't need more of that. I know it works for some. It's just not my cup of joe.
Nobshere~The alternative is more because AA is the accepted norm and it does not fit me. I see it as a dependency circle and I just don't need more of that. I know it works for some. It's just not my cup of joe.
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A Beatles quote with some spastic typing!
I didn't take anything weird, so no worries, really. Just making sure you weren't imagining some deranged bat biter here. My humor is a bit odd too. Even when I'm in strange spot attitude-wise. My husband used to call me a hippy chick...while that may be an extreme, I would like to get my Zen back. I had a pretty positive outlook that has gotten a lot darker. I'm just looking to be "me" again. The day I can peel potatoes and just think about peeling potatoes, I'll know I have this beat.
I didn't take anything weird, so no worries, really. Just making sure you weren't imagining some deranged bat biter here. My humor is a bit odd too. Even when I'm in strange spot attitude-wise. My husband used to call me a hippy chick...while that may be an extreme, I would like to get my Zen back. I had a pretty positive outlook that has gotten a lot darker. I'm just looking to be "me" again. The day I can peel potatoes and just think about peeling potatoes, I'll know I have this beat.
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