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Join Date: Oct 2012
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Greetings
Hello,
I just joined this site last night, and today is my first day without a drink. (I had maybe half a glass of wine last night to combat the withdraw). I've been trying to sober up for several years, have done an inpatient program, tried AA, and recently started seeing a clinical psychologist.
I have a genetic predisposition to alcoholism (which I did not learn about until only recently), several insecurity and anxiety issues, which when combined with my very real disease trigger binges that last more than a week. And it is completely insane that right now, sitting in bed with my throat still burning and swollen from violently vomiting bile all last night, I occasionally think about the half-full box of wine that I tossed in the trash last night. For me, moments like that are the true sign of the massive level of control this sickness has on my mind.
I jeopardized a potential job during this most recent binge, just moved into a new place and have yet to unpack, worried several people including my mom, and risked a third DUI by driving to the grocery store when I knew I was drunk.
I like the encouragement I read in many of these posts, and am hoping to stay strong and positive. I don't want to drink again.
Mike
I just joined this site last night, and today is my first day without a drink. (I had maybe half a glass of wine last night to combat the withdraw). I've been trying to sober up for several years, have done an inpatient program, tried AA, and recently started seeing a clinical psychologist.
I have a genetic predisposition to alcoholism (which I did not learn about until only recently), several insecurity and anxiety issues, which when combined with my very real disease trigger binges that last more than a week. And it is completely insane that right now, sitting in bed with my throat still burning and swollen from violently vomiting bile all last night, I occasionally think about the half-full box of wine that I tossed in the trash last night. For me, moments like that are the true sign of the massive level of control this sickness has on my mind.
I jeopardized a potential job during this most recent binge, just moved into a new place and have yet to unpack, worried several people including my mom, and risked a third DUI by driving to the grocery store when I knew I was drunk.
I like the encouragement I read in many of these posts, and am hoping to stay strong and positive. I don't want to drink again.
Mike
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Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Cleveland, OH
Posts: 1,191
Welcome. I can relate with a lot of what you said.
AA was my answer. I am now recovered and sober for 4+ years.
Keep an open mind and keep reaching out. I hope you find the answers you need.
Best wishes to you.
AA was my answer. I am now recovered and sober for 4+ years.
Keep an open mind and keep reaching out. I hope you find the answers you need.
Best wishes to you.
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