escapist

Wow I am still sober. I really don't feel too good today. My mind is stuck bad memory mode. One drunk episode after another. Spanning my life since I first drank. (I was 14, cherry vodka, went home , got slapped by my mother for drinking and threw up on everything) Fun time, yeah. Anyway, this will be my second weekend since I quit. Honestly, I feel kind of like drinking. I doubt I will because I am at the end of my rope. If I pick up I might as well go buy a burial plot because that is where I will end up SOON. I despise my personality when I drink. I talk incessantly and I become belligerant. So everyone who reads this give me a thumbs up for staying sober this weekend (and forever actually) Thanks, you guys are GREAT!!

Purplecatlover

Thumbs up! You can do this!

You will never regret being sober

Treat yourself to some comfort food. Nobody likes drinking on a full stomach.

SDSurfn

Thumbs up!!

Chrisy

I am so proud of you. You can do it.

Best wishes
Chrisy

Dee74

stay strong escapist

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Toss

Congrats, this is also my second weekend sober as well.

I do the same things, I am my worst critic. I go over things I've done in the past and beat myself up.

Stay strong, it's still early in the process, we can do it!

Toss

Blondie0419

You can do it! I'm 26 days sober today, weekends are the hardest time for me to not drink, but it feels good when you do it! Great posting that on here, holds you more accountable knowing other people on here are thinking of you too.

Positivefuture

Thumbs up! Stay strong it will get better, you deserve this. If you start drinking you will make more bad memories. You can stop that and make good ones. Don't give up!

Blondie0419

I am going through times when I think of stuff from my past too and it drives me crazy. Helps me remember why I want to stay away from he alcohol, but I'm trying to learn to forgive myself too. Not there yet though.

Hevyn

We know you can make it through this, escapist.

Dwelling on the past is very damaging - it kept me diving back in the bottle for years. We need to remember why we want to stay sober (as Blondie said) but your past doesn't define who you are. Rise above it, and welcome the new life waiting for you.

FreeFall

Weekends are definitely the hardest, but it does get easier as time goes on. I am now finding myself looking forward to nights at home when I can read, watch tv, and relax. It is a rollercoaster, a night or two ago I was so bored and craving anything social. Stay strong everyone, the rewards of quitting just keep multiplying over time.