Random sober thoughts...
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Random sober thoughts...
I was thinking earlier this year I made it 14 days without drinking, that was the most I had made it since I was pregnant and went 9 months without it 7 years ago, oh a few tried to go there and tell me a beer here and there won't hurt the baby,.I was not putting anything in my baby that wasn't supposed to go in! Anyhow, that didn't last long, a new baby, nursing school , 2 teenagers (mine), stepkids who were outta control, a husband with health issues , who wouldn't or couldn't be supportive got the best of me and the drinking resumed....and just for fun the people closest to me started dying, in less than 2.5 years I lost my grandparents who raised me and my husband. Im not sure why I haven't ended up in the psych ward, I think alcohol served its purpose before it turned into a demon and tried to take over my life!!! The lump in my throat is still there and the pain as well, time is making it easier to deal with but it will never go away....These are some of the random thoughts that play in my sober head...over and over again 
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The story is always the same. Eventually our best friend turned on us and made our life hell. Although will power will take you a long way use the tools on SR to stay sober.
Do it a day at a time and Congrats on 9 days
Do it a day at a time and Congrats on 9 days
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Yeah, alcohol is not my friend.....I because im a nurse have seen people go through full blown withdrawl and its literally like your body trying to get rid of a demon!
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Originally Posted by lilgolden73 
Yeah, alcohol is not my friend.....I because im a nurse have seen people go through full blown withdrawl and its literally like your body trying to get rid of a demon!
Those days are behind us. Stay strong
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Yeah, it takes a nurse to save a life sometimes...I have had to harrass doctors into sending patients to the ICU to.be put on an ativan drip and be intubated so they don't die.....its scary...4 point restraints and Q15 minute ativan just doesn't cut it for full blown withdrawals!!
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i've recently lost someone very close to me. the event took a real toll on my life, but i managed to make it even worse by drinking. (that's after nearly a year of being sober).
so on top of all that i almost lost my own life. granted i cared little at the time, because i was half delusional.
if i learned something from all that is that no matter how difficult life becomes, trying to make things easier by drinking is about as dumb of a decision as i can possibly make.
this "solving problems" by drinking routine is absurd. but once the cycle starts, it is so hard to break it.
so on top of all that i almost lost my own life. granted i cared little at the time, because i was half delusional.
if i learned something from all that is that no matter how difficult life becomes, trying to make things easier by drinking is about as dumb of a decision as i can possibly make.
this "solving problems" by drinking routine is absurd. but once the cycle starts, it is so hard to break it.
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