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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: Flint Michigan
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Hi! :)
Just wanted to introduce myself, say hi and whatnot. I've come here for additional support when I can't get to a meeting. I've been using for about 10 years now. I started using when my Mom died, opiates were my crutch. When my dad died Alcohol was my crutch.
I keep thinking about what my mom and dad would think if they were alive and I carried on like I was. Main drugs of choice for me are definitely opiates.. I'm on a short Suboxone deal. I've been through this before, but I relapsed. I'm thankful for the Suboxones because I wouldn't be able to get clean any other way. I'm wanting to go back to work after raising my kids as long as I could. My daughters are 17 and 13. They don't wanna see their momma doped out all the time. When my kids started noticing, it hit me in the head like a club. I need to quit and stay that way. I was taking it for legitimate reasons, a herniated disk. But honestly it doesn't hurt enough to warrant a pain pill (or in my case pills) I've taken up to at least 20 a day.
Anyway, I know that was long, sorry
Hope to get to know you all. I've been lurking a bit and decided to join.
I keep thinking about what my mom and dad would think if they were alive and I carried on like I was. Main drugs of choice for me are definitely opiates.. I'm on a short Suboxone deal. I've been through this before, but I relapsed. I'm thankful for the Suboxones because I wouldn't be able to get clean any other way. I'm wanting to go back to work after raising my kids as long as I could. My daughters are 17 and 13. They don't wanna see their momma doped out all the time. When my kids started noticing, it hit me in the head like a club. I need to quit and stay that way. I was taking it for legitimate reasons, a herniated disk. But honestly it doesn't hurt enough to warrant a pain pill (or in my case pills) I've taken up to at least 20 a day.
Anyway, I know that was long, sorry
Hope to get to know you all. I've been lurking a bit and decided to join.
Sober since October
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: In the world in my eyes...Somewhere I've never been before...
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Welcome, AllieCapone. I understand you. When my Mom passed away I felt guilty that, as I thought, I did not do enough to save her life (she had cancer). So, my remedy to take away the pain was wine.
I think your daughters are the great reason to live for. Wish you all the best in this journey to healthy life.
I think your daughters are the great reason to live for. Wish you all the best in this journey to healthy life.
Recovered from Hopeless State
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: New Jersey, USA
Posts: 2,156
Good choice to join. I've only been here a few days and love it. Very supportive.
"Flint" jogged my memory so I looked it up. I went to school in Ann Arbor for a while. Go Blue! Or are you a Spartan fan? I see Flint is equally close to Lansing.
Anyways, welcome!
"Flint" jogged my memory so I looked it up. I went to school in Ann Arbor for a while. Go Blue! Or are you a Spartan fan? I see Flint is equally close to Lansing.
Anyways, welcome!
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