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what happens to the person who doesnt know how to control their addiction and is filled with pain! At first i only was doing cocaine went i went out to the clubs but now i do drugs in my house by myself becuz im ashamed of what i have become! for the last year everytime i get paid i spend half my check on drugs then after i do it i regret what i have done! im my own worst enemy! i lost my car.ive isolated myself from the world and i feel like im lost! Today ive said the same thing ive said all year im going to stop! but as soon as i get money the cycle continues! and im literally broke and i need and pray that i lose this addiction before i lose my job or even worst lose myself!
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i have no room to talk bc i still drink but as far as the coke issue, you have to remove yourself from the friends,work and sometimes family if its that accessiable. I left my son at age 5 with a stupid ex husband bc i couldn't control it. i haven't touched coke in 20 yrs althought i don't have a good relationship with my son. my son is 25 and we had a good relationship or so i thought until 2yrs ago. i feel for you. get away from it as fast as you can. i packed my car, dropped my son off and left. i can never go back there. ashamed but i am a better person, mother and have the best son,husband ever! sorry to you and whomever is reading this if this takes away from your pain.
Hi,
I think you're experiencing the horrible cycle of addiction, shame/pain and worsening addiction. There is a way out and you can live a sober life. You will find a lot of support and information here.
I think you're experiencing the horrible cycle of addiction, shame/pain and worsening addiction. There is a way out and you can live a sober life. You will find a lot of support and information here.
((Lostandlost)) - Welcome to SR! I DID lose everything to addiction before I found recovery. It can be done, but we have to want recovery more than anything else. I've got over 5 years and SR has been a huge source of support.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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what happens to the person who doesnt know how to control their addiction and is filled with pain! At first i only was doing cocaine went i went out to the clubs but now i do drugs in my house by myself becuz im ashamed of what i have become! for the last year everytime i get paid i spend half my check on drugs then after i do it i regret what i have done! im my own worst enemy! i lost my car.ive isolated myself from the world and i feel like im lost! Today ive said the same thing ive said all year im going to stop! but as soon as i get money the cycle continues! and im literally broke and i need and pray that i lose this addiction before i lose my job or even worst lose myself!
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Thank u
This is my first time ever admitting that i have a problem! my checks are normally 1400 every two weeks and i spend 400 of it on coke! im trying my best to stop its just like as soon as i get paid i get the urge to buy drugs and sometimes it feels like i cant control myself! im crying right now becuz im too embarrased by my addiction and everything is falling apart all around me
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to be honest i got high last night but today i truly feel that i want this more than ever! i started as a member today and i pray that i get the strength from this day forward to begin my journey towards sobriety! im tired of feeling like im wasting my life!
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