lilgolden73

Its Thursday and my blender awaits one of my concoctions, I am more of a wine drinker, too old for liquor for the most part, yes I am pushing 40 and said I am too old for liquor...somewhere inside me the younger me is appalled!!!!! Anywho, the hospital called and needs extra help so I guess I will drink water and take care of the sickly! I have been getting alot of patients with alcohol related pancreatitis lately, and occasionally the extreme withdrawls, divine intervention im sure! Picking up shifts is out of my routine so here is to hoping I can stick with it and make new and healthier routines...not an easy task for this wino!

Natom

Thats Gods way of saying kick the booze.

Image101

Wow lilgolden, that's so awesome you're volunteering like that. Being around such ill alcoholic patients must make you think pretty hard, huh? Those patients are really, really lucky to have you helping them!

"Thirsty Thursday," HAH! Being 25, this term is something i've grown up with. Not like I saved drinking for thursdays/weekend, as far as my alcholic brain was concerned, it was thirsty ANYday!

lilgolden73

Thanks! I usually drank on days that end in Y! They called me desperate for an extra nurse, I would love to say I volunteerd! I could really use a drink, I mean really use one...this is hard!

Image101

Well, you could have said no, right? The fact that you didn't says something very important about you.
Just go in and do it!! I think we both know how good you'll feel when you finish and get home.
These actions are the little stones that make up the wall of sobriety!!

lilgolden73

Really trying here! I want out of the routine of drinking!

nobshere

The best piece of advise I ever received lilgolden was to think the drink thru..all the way thru..right to the next morning of pain and regret, heart palpitations and remorse. It worked for me many times!

lilgolden73

Thanks I have been doing that kinda sorta. I don't like how it feels aftere and I don't like it having the control it has over me!

nobshere

LOL..I have to chuckle at the kinda sorta part! I found it helpful early in sobriety to write a time line of my drinking. Starting with the first drink and ending the next day. It was my observation that the "enjoyment" of drinking was so short lived but the physical and mental pain lasted much longer. It took time but I learned how to love myself again, enough to stop killing myself. You can do this!

lilgolden73

Thanks! I know its short lived but why is that short time so addicting? Doesn't matter I guess, its just not good for the body or soul!

lilgolden73

Now.....if I could get this dam ringing in my ears to stop, that would be splendid!

lilgolden73

Almost had a breakdown on way to work, I hate having to feel things I don't wanna feel....boo!